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• Invisible Ink

  November 20, 2013

  At a loss.  A loss for words. for heartbeats. for deeper connections.  Loss. Feeling lost.  Park's 'Angles and Errors' finally made it to my headphones. I've avoided it these past two weeks.  Recalling tears, hands and hearts held upon first listening. A facade I kept up for y...

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• Wildfire

  November 12, 2013

  The gravitational pull. The world keeps spinning and I am thrown into its rhythm.  I am feeling lost.  I never realized how lonely life can be. You can be surrounded with people and still feel alone.  Starting to realize the weight of my loneliness.  No family to fall back on....

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• Melting

  April 12, 2013

  Restlessness.  Nights of sound sleep, but transient dreams. Tangential dreams.  I was on a road, feeling at home. Held in the arms of a friend.  Doing my best to channel my inner Jack Kerouac.  'Long is the road that leads me home.'  Except.  Where is that?  I d...

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• I can’t stop.

  March 18, 2013

  Spring is supposed to come tomorrow. In earth’s orbital pattern only. It certainly isn’t in warmth. I listen to the same songs on repeat again. And drudge through the past.  “Hello my old heart. It’s been so long since I’ve given you away.” There is a drea...

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• Changes.

  February 21, 2013

  There is such a strange, unsettling feeling that accompanies happiness. For one who has spent their life scrambling for this intangible idea, you’d think I’d be more settled when I achieve it. My mind still races when I put my head down at night. Just as badly as before. My job. This ...

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• 06/25/2012

  June 24, 2012

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• Forward Motion and Standing Still

  March 26, 2012

  I wonder if I’ll always struggle in adulthood.   Are dreams always doomed to be dashed? Drowned? I see myself being capable of great things, but I can’t just wait for some rich benefactor to come along. That’s not the way life works. So. We toil away in office jobs when we ...

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• Constants.

  March 24, 2012

  Our worshiping is relegated to the bedroom on Sunday morning. I would have it no other way. I am new. and whole. and yet, pieces of the same girl I always was. I still mourn the loss of what seems like huge chunks of my heart. This love helps. I am, for the first time in…

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• Cycles

  February 2, 2012

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