Recent Entries

• 05/17/2009

  May 16, 2009

  If there is a reason to this ... then I would like to know why I dont even know you, yet i miss you. I ache to feel your strong reassuring hand gently resting apon the small of my back guiding my purpose in this world   I wish i could read your mind There…

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• 05/13/2009

  May 12, 2009

  I'm back ... the spark that i seem to have lost has been reignited.  The music in my life isnt falling apon deaf ears, instead its filling my soul with joy, with passion with a desire for life.  What was lacking was self worth ... but you know what ... im pretty damn special, and t...

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• 05/04/2009

  May 3, 2009

  Please don't insult me by pretending you know who I am. Because plain and simple, you don't. I actually doubt if you ever did. The breeze is blowing in a new direction now. Change is inevitable... Yet somehow, in amoungst all the uncertainty and imtrepidation that my life seems to be caught up in...

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• something that needs to be said.

  April 27, 2009

  You annoy me .... simple yet true, you just god damn well annoy the heck out of me and i cant seem to tell you that because i know damn well that your response is going to just annoy the heck out of me too. So you need to go away, vamoose, dissapear, pack ya…

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• 04/26/2009

  April 25, 2009

  me *someone in DI thinks your good looking ... they were rather dissapointed to find out your married with kids* he *well ... when you've got it, you've got it* I wish i could be that confident.  I wish i could feel that confident.  But i dont.  I'm not cute, i dont stand out in&he...

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• definately not ace

  April 20, 2009

  So ... bad news, tomorrow I have to make an appointment to see an orthopaedic surgeon to arrange surgery on my knee. I am seriously very depressed by having to do so - have had therapy on my knee for the past 3 months to try and avoid surgery, but the MRI done yesterday confirmed…

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• 04/19/2009

  April 18, 2009

  "Stop! Playing with my delirium ... Coz im outta my head and outa my self control." I can't to get that song out of my head, in amongst my delirius state i can actually see the humour in that. I have this big empty void in my life right now, and the hardest part about…

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• 04/11/2009

  April 10, 2009

  I booked my holiday to Vietnam, Cambodia and Thailand.  Leaving for 3 weeks 1 week after my dirty 30.  Im going all alone and its excitedly scary.  Thankfully I still have some time to get used to it. Its now offically easter .... and there is no cute little bunny leaving me any ch...

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• 04/07/2009

  April 6, 2009

  I feel so highly strung and emotional, and ofcourse I am dealing with it in the most professional and grown up way ... yes - throwing a tanty at people such as my boss. I dont understand how i get so worked up and upset over things that i cant even explain to myself, yet…

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