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• hear the cheers

  September 11, 2008

  My friends are out of town right now, so I'm checking in on their cat while they're away. This evening I stepped out of my apartment to walk down the street to theirs, and I could hear and announcer and cheers not far in the distance. I was surprised that I lived so close to…

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• and then you’ll know

  August 4, 2008

  wow. has it really been this long since I wrote here? I couldn't believe it when I signed in and saw the dates on my latest entries. wow. I have been writing elsewhere - my public blog, in a journal for therapy.I'm tired now, but I do have something to write about. it's just that…

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• not what I expected

  June 21, 2008

  every few months, I go through a phase where I worry excessively about my elderly persian cat. I wake up multiple times a night to tenderly reach out to feel her breath. I run my fingers over her bony spine and hips. I cuddle her extra, tell her I love her. when I come home,…

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• the untold story

  May 31, 2008

  June 1st - that's a lovely date to remember.a few months ago, I decided that I trusted my two friends (married couple) enough to tell them my story. I didn't know when would be the right time to tell them, but I knew that I was ready to trust them with it. as time passed,…

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• that’s what I want

  May 30, 2008

  money money money...just another rant about money. I'm not so sure that I want to go into all the background, but if anyone actually reads this, I guess it'd be helpful.I have three jobs currently. one: assistantship on campus in an office. it's 12-15 hours a week and pays for three classes out o...

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• no need to say goodbye

  May 22, 2008

  I am an emotional mess right now. there are just so many thoughts swirling in my head - I have no idea how I can focus on one long enough to write it down and get it out. it's no wonder I'm feeling so emotional. there's just so much. I don't think I could list…

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• money bags

  May 5, 2008

  I need to vent about money. I don't want to vent in my more "public" journal, because friends and family read far too much into it. venting got me into trouble on that journal before anyway.since I doubt I've written about it here, I'll give you the basics: I'm planning a great trip in august.&he...

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• notably daily

  April 14, 2008

  It's been quite a while since I wrote here about a day in my life. I was reminded a couple of days ago, which reading through some old entries, that I used to do that quite often. it can be cathartic. and today was quite memorable, in several days, so here goes.last night I stayed…

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• intimacy is danger

  April 1, 2008

  spring break was only a couple weeks ago - though it feels like months and months. because of break, I missed a week of therapy. so in the two weeks between seeing kate, I thought often of emailing her. I wondered if I had a reason to, what I would say, how she would respond,…

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