Recent Entries

• Fix it yourself

  April 21, 2018

  Baca came today. They delivered the "cuts" for the children now known as Peachy, Bear Claw, and Robin. Their "biker names". It was a good morning. Then, "Peachy", her boyfriend, and Daddy went off to play disc golf while she stayed home to do yardwork and watch the boys. The day was productive, b...

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• Welcome to the country

  April 19, 2018

  She loves the house they live in. That being said this time of year is the worst. The smells emanating from the fields is ungodly. The bugs are unruly. Rodents everywhere. She was greeted by a possum stuck in her trashcan first thing in the morning yesterday. This is when she misses apartment liv...

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• Opening day and a prayer

  April 14, 2018

  Opening day for coach pitch with the boys. She did not get enough sleep for that, but their skills have improved, so there's that. Drive an hour to retrieve a repaired tv, and then back home for a much deserved nap. Today was a good one. She is so nervous for her daughter. Recently, she…

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• Five children and a clean house

  April 13, 2018

  Five children were in her home today. She has forgotten what babies are like, her youngest is 4. She is somehow happy and sad that she doesn't have a baby right now. "It would be so easy, everyone is much older now." "It would be so hard  everyone is much older now." Her day was…

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• “Go away”

  April 12, 2018

  She locks herself in the bathroom with hot years hitting her cheeks.... "Mama? Let me in I'm sorry." " Just give me a moment, " she says as she takes big deep breaths to calm her nerves. Opening your heart to encompass another child is easy, but the pain that comes with a mispoken word …

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• Lost and found…

  April 12, 2018

  Wow. Open diary. It's been a hot minute. Things are definitely changed in her world. Still married, three children, one dog. The more she reads about who she was the more things she realizes about herself. Trying to walk her 17 year old daughter (adopted) through the same hard places she went thr...

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• She wants to leave near the ocean…

  January 6, 2010

  Is it really possible for things in life to just fall together like this? Like she should be shocked... Everytime they move it's unplanned and crazy like this, but really this is too much even for her! So... Jason's boss is selling his house... 33,500.00 Owner financed... And if they can pass the...

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• She wants to be rich…

  January 5, 2010

  Jealousy is a really hard thing to control... People her age are living the dream life while she is living here... In an apartment... With no money and massive amounts of debt that they can't pay... Is this her penance for not going to school? For trying to make her husband "bring home the b...

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• She wants to scream…

  January 2, 2010

  So two years ago, her sister was happily married with four beautiful boys living a state away on a beautiful farm... After revealing that her husband had been abusive both physically and mentally for ten years, she decided to go to conseling... Her husband did not join her, and the wife of the ma...

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