Me, I'm a very Specific Carrot. In some circles, I'm known simply as Tee, Mr. Tee, or Teebag, Dr. Dr., The Reverend Father, to extremely close family David and online, generally TeeBag de Plume, Angry_Tongan

Here I am a carrot, but not just any carrot, a very specific one!

~ Made/Assembled in New Zealand from Australian Indigenous, local, and imported ingredients.

I am just another man struggling in a world of mental health battles, having a few wins, but feeling like mostly losses. Hoping that getting some things off my chest, out of the proverbial never-ending filing cabinet—the one we decompartmentalize and throw all our problems into to be maybe dealt with another day. Well, due to complications and the never-ending storage it provides, somehow it is getting too full and I need to get some of it out and deal with it, so that they can either be shredded and never needed again, or refiled neatly with a new label of 'work in progress'. One of the biggest issues is that some of these files have been filed away for over 30 years; some have only gone into the cabinet in the last few days.

Some great stuff and some really shit stuff too.
But my therapist keeps telling me that this needs to happen.

So here we are....

THIS IS NOT FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED! TRIGGER WARNING!!

NOTE TO ALL: Some of this content is not for the faint-hearted. There is likely going to be explicit language, and depending on the item I am unpacking, domestic violence, abuse, physical, mental, and sexual, including clerical sexual abuse,

Please do not read any of my content if you will be triggered easily, and if you are triggered or hurt, please seek assistance immediately. you are worth it!!!

ONE LAST WARNING, THIS IS NOT FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED! TRIGGER WARNING!!

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