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• Lost

  October 11, 2020

  I feel like... the title says it. I feel lost. I learned earlier this summer I have a daughter... and she's 7. She has been kept from me. But hell I still had feelings for the baby momma maybe we can work things out and be a family...   Fuck am I stupid. Now I'm…

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• 07/04/2013

  July 3, 2013

   I am typing this on my phone. Not sure how well it'll work but... Do you ever wonder about those that say they would miss you? His long it would be before your face fades from their memories and your voice they cannot imagine? I do. Everyday.

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• People…

  April 24, 2013

   They confuse the hell out of me. Even the ones I think I really know well. People continue to confuse the hell out of me. EX: I have a close friend. We both have some of the same goals in the near future. Lose weight, get a college degree. However whenever one of those opportunities…

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• The Questions

  April 21, 2013

   What am I doing with my life? It is the question I have been asking myself a lot as of late. I am so unsure of any ultimate goal... Other than I want to start a family. Be married... own a home. But today I sit and have to ask myself "What am I doing…

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• A Cruel form of Closure

  April 1, 2013

   I was talking to my friend the other day and I came to a rather terrible realization. One of the reasons I continued to return to past relationships was just so I could end them on my terms. I felt that way with Jacquelin were after she ended it all I wanted was her back.…

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• Fear of the unknown

  March 14, 2013

   So, I have had this chest cold for a while now. I went to the doc the other day to get meds. Not really the important part. I weighed in at a hefty 390. I got to have the old "You're a fat ass" talk. Which i know. I have never been little by any…

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• Hijab

  March 4, 2013

  Random thoughts for the day: I may have written about this before but am I the only person that tends to find a woman who follows the whole concept of Hijab (for those of you who don't know Hijab is the Islamic practice of modesty that does not just pertain to women but also men…

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• Worrisome

  March 1, 2013

   I am typing this from my phone. I guess we will see how well this works out I am... I am not even sure what word to use to describe how I feel today... depressed? despondant? lonely? Really they all fit quite well... I am bothered that the person I largely consider my best friend…

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• wasted away again..

  February 13, 2013

   Valentine's Day. Easily one of my least favorite holidays. When I am alone I absolutely loathe it. When I am with someone I merely tolerate it. I understand it is nice to celebrate love but I honestly have always tried to make love something i celebrate everyday mostly because that is the w...

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