Hi there, thanks for stopping by. I really appreciate it. Here is a list and descriptions of all of the main people in my life:

BRIAN:
Brian is my one and only. He is my friend, lover, critic and husband. He is the reason I look forward to my days. I met Brian in May 2003, and now two years later, we are still as strong as ever. He is funny, sweet, kind, caring, a great father and extremely hot!!! He does have his bad side lie everyone does. He can be horrilby pesamistic and overbearing at times, but no one is perfect. He helps me to belive in myself and understand that I can overcome things in my life that seem to big for me. I love him with all of my heart and soul.

HOLLY:
Holly is my very perfect, very beautiful daughter. She has brought a light into my life that shines brighter than any beacon. She is so smart, even for a 2 month old. Keep reading... I am sure this will change as she grows!

CLIONA:
Cliona is my best friend in my whole wide world. She is one of these people that make you feel good by just being around them. She is smart, funny, sexy and so, so kind. I didnt know I needed Cliona in my life until I met her, and now... I dont ever want to think what my life would be without her.

MAMMY:
My mother. My idol. The person I love and respect more than anyone. I want to have her strentgh and courage. She is an amazing person that I have always looked up to... even at times when she drives me nuts!

KELLY:
Kelly is my other best friend and Hollys Godmother. I met Kelly when I was 4 years old. She is such a fun loving, young hearted person. I hope that her love of life carrys on through her older years. She can be SO annoying at times, but she is such a big part of my life. Think of the most noisy, loud mouthed, hyperactive person or child that you know, multiply it by about a hundred... and you have got a Kelly all of your own!

SPUD:
Spud is a great guy. I grew up with him. He is a such a funny ass guy! He had is own band, which are pretty good. Its great to be able to have someone like him around to drink, laugh and hang with. But, on the other hand, we have shared the hard times together also. Although we are pretty easy going with each other, I know that through my hard days there is a deeper side to him that I can reach when I need it. And vice versa.

JOANNE:
My sister. So serious and sweet all at the same time. She has two children, a great house and job and a fiance that drives me fucking nuts. She was always family and future orientated. Dont piss her off though. She bites!

NATALIE:
My other sister. She drives me crazy. We have never really gotten along, but we are better than we used to be. She has a daughter. the cutest little thing on two legs. She is a single mother. Very strong. She has built a lot of walls around her to protect her from all that has happened to her and although I cant stand her sometimes, I think I respect her the most out of all my siblings.

KAREN:
Sister again. Karen is the oldest and for the longest time,

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Jaspers TV survey

January 13, 2011
Jasper's TV Survey   1. When you watch TV, do you purposefully watch and pay attention to it without dividing your attention for other people or tasks? Hardly ever to be honest. I have a serious multi-tasking problem.     2. When you don't have a show you want to watch that is on a...
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    May 5, 2010
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    February 8, 2010
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    January 26, 2010
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    December 24, 2009
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