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• My crying shirt.

  November 5, 2004

  I made it to 260 today! (Just wanted to to that before the skies darken)     I have my crying shirt on....I just realized it...every time I wear this lime green t-shirt...I have a huge need to cry uncontrollably...as long as Im wearing it. Wonder what it reminds me of. I wont ...

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• Day #4 – Stupid Gremlins

  November 4, 2004

  Damn! I am so pissed off. I’ve been putting off coming here all night…..doing everything I could to stay away. Every time I’d sit down to type, something else more important that needed my IMMEDIATE attention would come up. So here it is…..3 ½ hours later and I finally get myself together and my ...

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• Day #4a…Continued at last

  November 4, 2004

  Well….I was born. *shocker* My mother must have been shocked also because 3 days later she left me in a stroller in a ballfield. She did call my father to let him know where I was and for that I am eternally grateful to her. I do not now nor have I ever had any…

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• Day #4b…Now we’re getting somewhere

  November 4, 2004

      While I was still in the Navy, I had a roommate who was a lesbian, we were good friends first and then began a relationship that lasted 5 years. She was a good person and I hope shes found someone to spend her life with.    I had gotten out of the Navy while…

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• Day #4c – Moving Right Along

  November 4, 2004

     I made a few cyber friends and looked forward to my husband leaving each morning so I could trip over furniture on my  mad rush to turn on the computer. I was heavily addicted. I met a guy online in a chat room that I frequented and  of course at first it was a…

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• Day #4d-Winding to a close.

  November 4, 2004

  I got a job as a seamstress and got a young collage roommate who’s hours allowed her to help me with the kids when they weren’t with my ex.. We decided to divorce and drew up our own terms. I didn’t want an angry drawn out drama and we did it without court.   I…

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• Day #3 – Lets try this again.

  November 3, 2004

   Here I was...already to type in this whole longgggg entry and I spill an ENTIRE soda on my keyboard. Does anyone know how damn SLOWWWW a kid moves when asked to grab something QUICK??   Anyways...I did come back after the cleanup altho I've kind of lost my momentum. Im just gonna type ...

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• Day #2 (Out of 365)

  November 2, 2004

       Why the heck  does this thing keep changing my font size & type????         Today was hell....still running on a super depression cycle. I almost cant even talk to John...Iam so effing pissed at him....and at myself for wasting ...

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• Day #1(Out of 365…but whos counting)

  November 1, 2004

    Ever feel like you're living someone elses life....and you dont like it.  How about when you feel like somethings wrong but you cant quite put your finger on it? Im so tired of things not working out the way I want or plan. Im tired of smiling and not meaning it. Im tired of…

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