Recent Entries

• This title has nothing to do with the entry below

  January 6, 2007

  I can't tell who I am anymore.I've changed so much that I haven't changed at all. After he left I just let myself reverse everything good that had happened to me, and started to revert back to the way I used to be, before I even met him. I'm so self-conscious, I hate the way…

  Continue Reading...

• It’s all just a matter of time

  December 31, 2006

  "Happy New Year" is the phrase I've seen the most on every single website I've visited today. I'm sure it's what a lot of the entries on this site are about today (I hate to conform and actually write an entry about the new year as well, but hey, what else is there to write…

  Continue Reading...

• The Thread is Starting to Break

  December 17, 2006

  I realized that something is seriously wrong with me when I looked down at my arms and couldn't find room to do any more damage. And the thing is, I don't know how it happened. One minute there was just a scratch or two, and now...I'm finding that I'm blanking out a lot lately. There…

  Continue Reading...

• Just hang on one more day…

  December 9, 2006

  For the past three years I've been telling myself to just hang on for one more day. That one day has turned into three years, and I don't know where all the time went. For 3 years I've been forcing myself to live in the present and not worry about anything else behind or infront…

  Continue Reading...

• Might as Well be Dead

  December 4, 2006

  For the amount of time people actually spend paying attention to me, I might as well be dead. I know I don't appear to want the attention, but that's what people don't get. Sure I like my alone time, but when I'm right in front of you, how can you think it's acceptable to just…

  Continue Reading...

• Talked to Boy…

  November 8, 2006

  So I was talking to Boy yesterday, and I had my hopes and dreams completely shattered. This is the majority of our conversation: Him: There are only... well, only two people I              can ever be myself around if I'm talki...

  Continue Reading...

• Been Awhile

  November 6, 2006

  Well I realized that I haven't written in here in awhile. So I thought I would update. Nothing all that big has happened in the past few weeks or so. I officially hate school, and am considering just dropping out. I'm sick of my parents. Those things aren't exactly new though. Today is kinda depr...

  Continue Reading...

• I’m not okay

  October 15, 2006

  Shy Appearances is not doing very well. Shy Appearances is being stupid stupid stupid. Shy Appearances doesn't need help. Shy Appearances is fine. Shy Appearances will get better eventually. Shy Appearances will stop feeling like this. Shy Appearances is fine. Shy Appearances doesn't really want ...

  Continue Reading...

• Decisions, decisions

  October 10, 2006

  I have a choice: 1. Getting internet in my room for 2 hours everyday. or 2. Having internet for as long as I get it now, but in the most crowded room in the house. So, there are pros and cons to both of these options. Pros for #1: ~privacy ~comfort ~quietness ~privacy Cons for…

  Continue Reading...