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• Wild

  June 18, 2023

  It has been quite some time. But I do not want to begin with a catch up.   I am feeling this connectedness, maybe it is fleeting and will pass by the morning. That's how things seem to go now. But it is here now, and I'm thankful for it. A part of my breath…

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• Intermission

  July 5, 2021

  He hugged me hard, It was safe, and warm, and longing. His hand placed gently on the back of my head. Holding me steady and secure. Like a baby.   It didn't feel like goodbye, But it was. It felt like the last page of a long book. Yearning and ending. Emptiness and love.  …

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• Late Drifty Rambles

  June 15, 2021

  My mom raised seven of us. None of us are even remotely similar. No two of us have the same faults/issues. My mom raised seven kids alone. Never home. One of us babysitting the others. Worked 60+ hour work weeks up until 5 years ago. My mom is 64, helping raise my three year old…

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• Eclipse

  June 13, 2021

  I took a shower today. It felt like the hardest thing I've done in a long time. Walked into the bathroom multiple times, finding it consistently and increasingly overwhelming. Picked my brain apart, wondering why. What was the feeling? Was I afraid to reckon with my own body? Afraid to see all th...

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• Chosen One

  March 13, 2021

  His eyes tapped away at my heart until it became a perfect box made just for them. Curtains of dark lashes. You'd wonder how his eyes always shine through them. Bright, happy, clear.. Completely captivating. He holds onto the moment with me, staring right back at me, into me. I'm in the moment, n...

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• Home

  January 5, 2021

  His sleepy voice in the middle of the night broke to say "you're wonderful", as he inhaled deeply into the back of my neck. It's always so hard to sleep, but it's getting easier. The worry over which morning will be the last, is fading. I've never been more content watching someone else sleep. Ne...

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• Summer rain

  December 29, 2020

  It's warm, sweet air that I breathe around you. A whole-bodied sense of peace and harmony that I had almost forgotten. I feel like I could melt into you. Like we could both tangle ourselves up so close together and disappear into the couch. Your arms all the way around me. We could not physically...

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• Early Morning Rain

  October 29, 2020

  It's early hours We kissed in the cold rain before he left. I kept searching for impatience, but he embraced it as much as I. I haven't felt that in quite some time. Haven't gone back to bed. He always leaves me with a thousand puzzles to work through. Mostly knots my brain creates trying…

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• The houses we build

  October 25, 2020

  For a moment we were one.   An inhale, an exhale, repeat. A harmony of breath. Expanding and collapsing.   He’s like a house with many rooms   Behind each door is another slow realization. I look out the windows beyond, to find hills that I’ve made from every hole that I hide in wh...

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