Recent Entries

• i want to see you be brave

  August 10, 2013

   must i comment on how i haven't written in forever? of course, how else am i supposed to start an entry? i have been having generally the most busy but awesome summer of my life which has included: *the adventure park at storrs http://storrsadventurepark.com/ *the beach! maine and rhod...

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• i suddenly realized we’re all in this together

  February 21, 2013

   so things are a bit better than the last time i wrote, largely thanks to snowpocalypse which dumped over 3 feet of snow and gave me 4 glorious snow days from school AND work so i was actually able to get caught up. now that just needs to happen at least once every 2 weeks…

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• but everything goes away

  February 2, 2013

  so i take back everything i said in my last entry about not wanting to die anymore. the difference is i used to want to die for no real reason. now life is just so horrible and stressful that i would give anything for it to just stop. this is all made worse by the…

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• you can say anything

  January 17, 2013

   it feels like it hasn't been that long since i've written an entry because i'm always reading. i don't really know how to describe myself, my life, anymore. i am a very different person than i have ever been. i appreciate more, i guess. i couldn't call myself depressed anymore. for the firs...

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• nervous ramblings.

  August 27, 2012

  you know what sucks really really bad? food poisoning. from seafood. the only perk being that i lost over 8 pounds in 24 hours. i could market this shiznit. but no really, i was pretty sure i was going to die. i start nursing school tomorrow and i am still so weak that i can't…

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• diamond in the rough

  June 3, 2012

  on saturday, i was driving home from my team placing second at states (which is amazing for us), and then going shopping at the outlets there by myself in the pouring rain and buying things i deserved for making it through the season. i was behind a car that had a "please rescue" sticke...

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• unresolved

  May 7, 2012

   last night i had a dream where i was writing furiously, poem after poem in old familiar spiral bound notebooks. dan was there, he asked what i was writing and i said something like "i used to write a lot, back when i was depressed. i don't know who i am now, i'm not me…

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• if there ever was a time, it would be now

  January 20, 2012

   so apparently the last time i wrote was november.  i feel like i write all the time because i'm on OD everyday and read everyone else. i guess this nursing thing is really happening, except i decided to go with a 2 year associates degree program instead of the UCONN accelerated program...

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• oh you got a fire and it’s burning in the rain

  November 16, 2011

  things have been bad since i last wrote. i spend most days curled in bed staring at the wall until it's time to go to work.  i've felt unbearably useless, unable to ever find a job in my major or a job in anything other than gymnastics, for that matter.  i've applied to seriously hundre...

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