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• Sleepless nights and dark dreams…

  April 4, 2025

  Last night was a nearly sleepless one, which are unfortunately becoming a more common occurrence now that menopause is upon me. Imagine being tired, yet being bolt wide awake... My husband gave up and made for the spare bedroom around 2 am, and then I laid there for a while and listened to the th...

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• Looking to the future

  April 3, 2025

  Now that things are relatively quiet in my daily life, I've gotten to thinking about certain future events. One of these is of course my roller coaster trip that will take place in about six weeks. This will be my first foray to an amusement park this year and will encompass both Kings Dominion a...

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• The folly of extreme worry

  March 30, 2025

  Lately I've been thinking about what I've learned in the past 20 some odd years with regards to the defeat of the terrible phobia I once suffered. I meticulously documented my struggle in imagery and writing back then (including having a journal here at OD), and I even kept track of and made copi...

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• You don’t know what you have until it is gone…

  March 28, 2025

  There is an old saying that probably most people have heard before. “The good that men do dies with them, but the evil lives on and on...” or something to that effect. This of course reflects the human tendency to remember negative things far more intensely than neutral, or perhaps even joyous th...

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• Remembrance and rebirth

  March 26, 2025

  Well, today was the day. One year ago to this day Baltimore's Key Bridge was destroyed early in the morning darkness. There has been even more content about this showing up on various local (and some national) media. Some of this concerns memorials for the victims, while others discuss blame for ...

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• Since you’ve been gone

  March 26, 2025

  A full year has gone by, and here we are again at this time when the seasonal parts of the Northern hemisphere began to come back to life. Crocuses are in full bloom, and so are many early daffodils. Grass has begun to green up in places, and I've already started two container gardens with…

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• Strange dreams and missing keys

  March 21, 2025

  Last night (actually it was early this morning) I had a really weird dream, one that combined facets of my long ago past and current times. I was living in an apartment, not unlike the one I had in California a couple of decades ago. But it was located on a street that was almost…

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• One year later…

  March 20, 2025

  Last night I watched that special about the Key Bridge, and, for the most part, it was a waste of time. A good portion was consumed by interviews with politicians, one of whom (our foolish governor) was far more concerned with his upcoming run for re-election than the bridge disaster. Which, of c...

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• A metaphor for change

  March 19, 2025

  It's been almost a year since I started this journal; and almost a year since the fall of the Key Bridge, the event that has inspired many of my musings. Tomorrow night on the local PBS station there is to be a retrospect special about the collapse and all that has transpired in the year…

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