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• Visions of Envisions

  February 27, 2025

  Last night I had a dream, that reality came crashing a little too hard. And all the thoughts of what if and what could happen, in the least favorable way did come up, in this dream. I believe we were in school again, yet we were this age, this all these life experiences behind us,…

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• Hope, is just the opening act for desire.

  February 26, 2025

  I have been disconnected with the desire for life. And the more that I think about it, the more that I try to connect with it and try to understand it. And I question myself, "What am I desiring now anyway?" I've been thinking about how we desire. There are things that we desire that…

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• Your difference.

  February 11, 2025

  I've turned off all the sound and electrical devices that make noise, except the soft humming sound from the room's fan. So the only thing I can hear are my own thoughts again. I spoke to a past coworker today, and he said his wife had an emergent organ surgery caused by her own lifestyle…

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• The lie in life; that we have believed in for so long.

  February 10, 2025

  It's February tenth, and I reach with my hand to grab a lubricant for my hands. I choose a bottle, travel sized of course, of a light seafoam green color, translucent and with an image of a palm tree on in it in white. It's labeled with "COOLING" at the bottom, and on the top…

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• Somewhere, in place & time.

  January 26, 2025

  I've left work over four hours ago, yet I am still regaining my ability to stay within my body. "Who am I? Who am I, anymore?", I ask myself weekly, if not multiple days a week. "I am tired.", says the mind in response. I look down at my body, feeling aches and pains where…

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• So I dare to ask, where is your creative genius hiding in?

  August 6, 2024

  Elizabeth Gilbert once said that she has to write everyday, in order to see if she magically comes up with something worth writing about. That it's more like work for her, and at times the creative genius comes out to work with her too, and other times it doesn't. I'm bored. I've probably been bo...

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• Just to feel the safety of Freedom.

  April 8, 2024

  Every so often I decide to look back and do a "Year in Review" for my life. I like to see where I was a year ago, and check-in to see where I am now. Still suffering this same dreadful parts of life? Or have I now matured into another level of light or darkness?…

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• Moments in life, not just people in life.

  March 26, 2024

  I really hate needy people. Needy things, or things that don't leave you alone just to get your attention. Today, it felt like there were so many things in my way of even trying to conquer any small goal today. I actually did not even have a desire to compose of a goal today. But…

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• Are You My Mother?

  March 2, 2024

  There's this children's book called "Are You My Mother?" that I woke up and was thinking a lot about today. For about the past two years, who knows maybe even longer, I've been thinking about this book. Like the true meaning behind it, and what meaning we put behind it. It's about a bird, who&hel...

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