Recent Entries

• To be delivered by Pony Express

  November 24, 2023

  Dear Man Who Holds My Heart,  I care for you very much; I sincerely hope you understand this and take it to heart. Please don’t take my affection lightly, and don’t try to find a reason for it. I have spent countless hours in self-reflection, and I can’t begin to form an explanation. If you…

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• … glass splinter working its way into your heart …

  September 28, 2022

  “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you,…

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• One year of crying and the words creep up inside

  April 30, 2022

  There is so much to say, so many things to update. I can't think of where to begin past "I am overwhelmed." I like my job well enough, I suppose.  If you had told my younger self that I was actually really good with financial things I probably would have laughed at you and then…

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• Zoso_

  April 11, 2022

  It is miserable in this hollow, lonely space, somewhere between knowing he's in love with me and I am in love with him but also knowing there's nothing to be done about it. He's over there while I am over here and there are miles and miles of thick, dark, unforgiving space between us, both…

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• Sneaky little bitch

  February 7, 2022

  A long time ago in a land far, far away from where I live now, I dated a guy with … questionable morals, you could say. No, not questionable – actually no morals. I couldn’t tell you why I stayed with him as long as I did; I wasn’t desperate, I wasn’t without other options…

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• Good night, 2018

  December 31, 2018

  Things that happened in 2018 that were not planned for: 1. The bitter but not surprising end of a long-term relationship. 2. My Jeep being the victim of a hit-and-run. 3. The sudden, unexpected and jarring loss of a beloved pet. 4. An awareness that my drinking was an issue, then finding the cour...

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• Rushing the shaman, 1985

  August 7, 2018

  Sean and I met in the summer of 1985, the summer before my senior year in high school. He was a cute tourist in town with his family on their summer vacation, I was a sassy local who had met hundreds of boys on vacation with their families on summer vacation, but something about this…

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• Syndrome

  October 10, 2017

  So here I am again, a blank page staring at me and so much in my head waiting to get written out.I called in sick this morning - mostly legitimate, I have a sinus infection but it truthfully isn't killing me. What kills me is the idea of explaining basic accounting principles to people with ...

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• Cooling

  January 26, 2014

  I'm wondering if there's anyone left out there ... My name is Kelly and please know that I miss you. For each and every one of you who read this there is a place for you both in my heart and in my mind. If this is the last you see of me, just know…

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