Recent Entries

• growing a back bone

  May 9, 2021

  I wanna get better. I want to work on my mental health. my college classes just ended and I did really good on my finals. I am proud of myself. I realized the job that I am currently working is making me depressed because its bitch work so I decided to quit. I have to…

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• alone

  May 5, 2021

  god damn it hurts. it hurts being this alone. most nights I accept that im all alone. I don't let it bother me. but it has been killing me.i have no one. I used to have my sister but she has her own life and dreads even talking to me. I do the same thing…

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• no title just a rant

  April 28, 2021

  Im so upset that im living my life trapped at home. I literally do nothing all day at all. I fucking hate it. im so broke too. I need a few things to buy but don't have the money for it at all. I did my nails today but my sister lent me the $$.…

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• reminiscing

  April 25, 2021

  so recently I've been reminiscing. here I feel like I can say whatever the fuck I want so I will. I've been missing my hoe life. I haven't been out there and playing guys for like a year now. so much of it is unfinished. due to covid school got cut just when I was…

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• cant accept

  April 20, 2021

  so if someone were to ask me how I am right now I would say that I am completely fine. and I do feel that way. I am actually ok. but I also know its because I don't allow myself to process things. I just burry them and never revisit the topic again. I have…

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• apology/my current thoughts

  April 19, 2021

  my dad apologized to me tonight and I guess I forgave him. but deep down I didn't. I got high today and yesterday and it made me feel so much better. it was just what I needed. I only "forgave" him because I need a car from him. I need him to buy me a…

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• survey

  April 19, 2021

  What time are you starting this? 6:19pm Name? Nicknames? Date of birth? libra Sex? female Height? 5'9 Eye color? brown Where were you born? Number of candles on your last birthday cake? 3 Pets? none Hair color? brown Piercings? only on ears Town you live in? Favorite foods? sushi Ever been to Afr...

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• :(

  April 18, 2021

  when he attacked me I was scared for my life. I have never seen a man go that crazy on his own daughter. I felt so defenseless. he's still pissed off at me. he's mad that I hit him back but it wasn't even like that. it was self defense. I was actually scared for…

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• damage

  April 17, 2021

  sometimes I sit and think about how everything happened and how I ended up here. and there's only two reasons why well.. three if you count my dad. 1. my first boyfriend 2. the day I got into a car accident and had to face a decade worth of surgeries. I never really talk about…

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