Recent Entries

• Say It

  May 24, 2013

   I was watching a movie the other night and the main characters were talking. Something that was said has really resonated with me.  I can't remember the exact quote but the gist was "They say we die twice, once when you take your last breath and then you truly die when the last pe...

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• Christmas past

  December 16, 2012

   I was so excited I could barely sit still. It was always the same. Even though I saw all of these people on a regular basis there was something about gathering together on this day that was extra special. It was almost always cold enough to make your fingers and toes numb and the tip…

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• wounded spirit

  June 9, 2012

   Life seldom goes the way we want it to go.  I have been struggling with depression for months. I have somehow kept putting one foot in front of the other but not much more than that. The boys are out of school for the summer. We survived another year. When it starts up again we…

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• sweetest pain

  March 17, 2012

   Time is a fickle thing. When you are a child the summers stretch out in an endless search for mischief or a willing playmate and ice cold watermelon. It was only as I grew older that I realized those long lazy days were like dandelion seeds, here one minute and then scattered at the whim&he...

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• “please connect me…”

  March 4, 2012

    My daughter is now living in my parent's old house.  She has rearranged and added things so that it feels like her home now. It still feels so strange for me though. There is not a single inch of that house that is not filled to overflowing with memories. They brought me home from&hel...

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• Mama

  March 4, 2012

   It might sound as if I have either forgotten mama or that I am indifferent to her. That isn't true. I love her with all my heart. She has been a constant presence and influence.  I grew up watching her work side by side with daddy. That meant my naturally shy mama had to learn…

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• teasing threat

  February 26, 2012

  The summer sun has bathed the isolated stretch of beach until the pale sand is almost unbearably hot to the touch. I know that once that fiery  orb finally slides into the dark blue of the distant horizon that the temperature will drop dramatically.  I have visited this place often and ...

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• just an ordinary day….

  February 10, 2012

   It was just an ordinary day. I was sitting in the car waiting for Lauren to finish with a job interview and my phone rang. It was my mother calling to let me know that she had gotten married.  I knew something was going to happen but I had no clue that it would happen…

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• promises kept

  February 5, 2012

   The music fades. Conversation recedes. The volume hasn't changed, merely my awareness of it. My nerve endings become sensitive and a primal part of my being searches for the source of this shift in the atmosphere. My heart no longer beats in the comfortable familiar rhythm instead flutterin...

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