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• New home, same problem

  January 22, 2009

  I made it to Illinois. I can not believe how much this hurts. I can't put into words the pain I feel every minute of every day. All because I left him. I left something that wasn't even mine and it still hurts. And to make it worse? He told me today that "since you…

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• My last Saturday night here

  December 5, 2008

  How odd. I sat down to write something and it just hit me that it really is my last Saturday night in California. I'm going out with Heather tonight to a hole in the wall bar we frequent. I'm pretty well packed, just mostly last minute stuff. 3 days of work left then the movers…

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• Just stop already

  October 20, 2008

  I'm sick of it. I'm sick of hearing about it, being asked about it. No, I'm not going to the fucking wedding. Why? Well...how do you politely say "because I think his fiance is a psycho bitch and I hate her". Cuz I don't think that answer would fly. I'm tired of being here. I'm…

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• OD tracker survey…..why not

  October 1, 2008

  OD tracker survey. Thank you for deciding to do this. This is an experiment to track a survey around OD. The reason I am doing this is simple. I thought it might be interesting to see for myself how far a survey could go round this site from this humble entry. It'll also be interesting…

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• LeRoi

  August 18, 2008

  The community that I have called my community...and home...for over 10 years was just rocked. LeRoi Moore, sax player for the Dave Matthews Band died this afternoon at age 46. I have no words...nothing to describe how I feel. All I can offer is tears. 68 shows I have seen this wonderful, talented...

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• So you say…

  July 24, 2008

  You say you're done. That's funny, cuz I said the same thing a few hours ago. But I think we are talking about 2 very different things. Five years...do you realize that? Five years this has been going on between us and I am the only one losing anything. How is that fair?? From where…

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• Well, that didn’t take long

  March 1, 2008

  I asked for an answer and you gave it willingly. And in giving that answer you made yourself appear to be the biggest asshole I think I have ever met. "You're looking for a savior and I'm not it" and my favorite has to be "I only slept with her because I though she was…

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• Waste of a day

  February 7, 2008

  It's my Friday off and the only time I even left my bedroom was to run to Costco (because it sucks to go there on the weekends) and to eat. I feel lazy. We went out last night for a coworkers and my bosses birthday. I wasn't really feeling very social but had to be…

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• Why is this all so confusing?

  January 27, 2008

  You made me fall in love with you...is that what you wanted? Because if so...you succeeded. We're together all the time...home and work...did you think that we wouldn't form some kind of bond? Friends keep asking when we're gonna get together..."You're perfect for each other". Hell, the bartender...

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