Recent Entries

• What might have been…

  May 17, 2010

  My eyes shot open in the middle of the night. I sat there paralyzed for a moment, or an hour. I am not sure which. And then suddenly and uncontrollably I started to cry. As my sleeping mind slowly reconcilled with my waking mind, I realized that I had just had the most frightening dream…

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• new house pictures

  April 4, 2010

  sorry it took me so long to get these up, but below are pics of the new digs. and of course i will put up pics once we are moved in since i have done that at all three places i have lived since i became a member on OD. but before i put up…

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• 1st time home-buyer’s credit, here I come!!

  March 12, 2010

  *Jumps up and clicks heels* Guess what guys?? We just bought a house! Well, mostly. We still need to do the home inspection and stuff. But if all goes well, Chewie and I will be proud home owners on April 27th. So you wanna know about the house? Okay, I'll tell you. We started looking…

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• hate in my heart – still

  February 8, 2010

  Thank you to everyone that commented and/or offered advice on my last entry. I really do appreciate you taking the time to offer insite and suggestions based on your own personal experiences with "baby mama drama" - or life in general. I was a little surprised as it was fairly obvious s...

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• hate in my heart

  February 6, 2010

  I need help. I need to figure out how to stop hating Lyndsey so much. My hatred towards her consumes me sometimes. The reason I am having a hard time letting go of the hatred though, is because I know it is completely justified. I know that the moment she would decide to grow up and sta...

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• Dear Diary

  January 31, 2010

  Wow. I am surprised I still know how to write an entry on OD. I guess writing on OD is sorta like riding a bike. Once you get the hang of it, you never forget how to do it - no matter how long it's been! I miss this place. And I still blame it on…

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• life sentence

  October 17, 2009

  i can't remember if i wrote about my ex's prison sentence. he was sentenced to 20 years in federal prison and is now in a prison in Oklahoma somewhere. and for him, 20 years will likely be a life sentence. not because he is old, but because he is not strong enough to survive. he'll…

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• it’s all the same

  September 28, 2009

  nothing has changed. except i got the test results back from the ultrasounds. surprisingly, no cysts or fibroids, so that's great news. there were a couple things that came up on the scans but nothing alarming or that isn't being dealt with. i will spare you all the details. all my other test res...

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• It’s official…

  September 14, 2009

  As I was walking out of the Minneapolis Radiology Imaging center this morning, I had a message on my cell phone. I had just been poked and proded and violated in a number of different ways by the lady doing the ultrasounds. Details really aren't necessary, except to say that I am NOT pregnant and...

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