Recent Entries

• A Letter

  December 20, 2013

   you fucked me up. it took me months to get over it. to function in some type of normal way. to stop incessantly having dreams about you. I still do that, sporadically. More so now. I don't know what it is about you, or why I continually feel the way I do. I got over…

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• Glass Houses

  August 19, 2013

   It's high school all over again. I only have two or three good friends. Everyone else just wants things from me, and when they're done, they want fuck all to do with me. Especially when I need something. 

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• People Suck

  August 15, 2013

   I don't understand this bullshit of what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. I don't fucking know what I'll be doing in 1 year or 5 years or 10 years. For all I know, I'm going to be fucking dead, so leave me alone. I don't know. And I don't understand why people…

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• My Internal Dialogue

  August 13, 2013

   Fuck.

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• Mea Culpa

  August 13, 2013

   I keep having nightmares. Bad dreams. I keep losing people in my dreams. Mainly the guy I used to see. He's back in them. I thought I stopped dreaming about him. I had one last night where I was working, and he came in and bought something, and he gave me the cash, but he…

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• To Build a Home

  August 8, 2013

   I wish I could leave this place. Not come back. I feel so disenchanted with everything right now. Along with most people. I used to be excited to run away to Tampa. Now I hate it. I hate what it's become. I hate how the people have changed into these ugly monsters. I've been trying…

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• Don’t Want It All

  August 3, 2013

  It wasn't a date with that girl. I thought it was. It seemed like it. We met for tea. I chose a four-person table. She sat at the seat next to me instead of across. We hugged "hello". We talked about personal things. We went back to the apartment. Had food. We laid in the…

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• Blue Light

  July 24, 2013

   The guy got into a relationship. I expected it. It still would have been nice to get an answer back from him. I suck at this, it seems. I won't play games. I won't do this cat and mouse bullshit. I don't want to fucking chase anyone. I just want to be with them. Life's…

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• Boy Meets Girl

  July 21, 2013

  There's nothing to say except that the rumours about that threesome and the polyamorous relationship that the person I've had feelings for are true. Though it was with someone we all know. I was also told, that because of how close we are, that I should be the last person to know about it. Someon...

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