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• Her wedding

  February 9, 2000

  Ok. I told one of my best friends Id be a brides maid in her wedding. she needed one more girl before she thought to ask me and I brought it up. She said she didnt even think to ask me because she knew how tight things are for me right now and she wasn't…

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• Dilemnas

  February 7, 2000

  Ok. I am doing a bit better here. I admit this past weekend I lost control completly but Im calming down more and more each day. So don't worry I'll be ok. I have been stressed about a few things lately. I think the living situation is the worst of it all right now. I…

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• My alternative

  February 4, 2000

  Hello here I am. I almost thought last night was it for me. I have decided to cut the drinking out of my life. When I tell my friends I drink to much they laugh at me because I really don't drink much compared to a normal person at the bar or a person who…

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• true love

  February 4, 2000

  The smell of him the voice in himthe looks of himthe respect from himthe laughter in himthe sadness in himthe silence in himthe thoughts of himthe dreams of himthe realizations of himthe nightmares of himthe cravings of himthe blindness from himthe kindness from himthe smile on himall of himevery...

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• winter blues

  February 2, 2000

  I don't know what to say anymore. It used to be so easy to write about my feelings but now it's just hard. I have been reading a lot of people's entries in here and I have been touched so much. It's like every entry I read I'm there with them. The relationship ones, the…

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• Best friends

  February 2, 2000

  10:pm and I sit here across from my boyfriend whom is on his computer. I just read a few of my old diaries and sat here laughing aloud and crying. Dan just looks at me like I am crazy. This is where Dan and I have our differences. There is no one exceptt the people…

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• dear diary

  January 31, 2000

  ok. Well this is something new. i have been writing in a diary on my homepage for over a year now and in a paper diary for 10 years but here we go I welcome myself to wherever I am.The snow here is piled up all over the streets. The plowsdid an ok job this…

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• lost in snow

  January 31, 2000

  "I'm a little insane all the time and a bit radical sometimes" thats what she wrote, some girl who wrote an entry today. Most people do think that when you make no sense or you are always dealing with emotions that aren'teven real you are a freak or need counseling. I love who I am…

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• destruction

  January 31, 2000

  When I was young, there was one thing I did right and that was stay true to myself always. I didn't listen to what others said. Not ever. I kept a clear overview of the things that were coming for me. deep down, I knew that when I left home, I'd find what I needed…

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