I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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A Week Gone and Singing the Same Tune…

April 4, 2025
You would think that I would be singing a different tune considering I just started a new job on Wednesday...but sadly my marriage is a  Came home today and for some odd reason.........anyway I immediately got that whiff of alcohol. Well let's be honest I know he has been drinking all week...ever...
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