I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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Time Moving Slowly…

December 18, 2024
So last week I was fired. He didn’t think I met his expectations and after a lil push and pull with HR I agreed to sign a MSA….basically they don’t want today they fired me but I need to be able to claim UIF within the next few months… right now I am stressing as…
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    December 4, 2024
    …and the kid isn’t even mine. Heck when I was a kid in school I loved preparing for school…kids have it real easy…get their parents to do everything for them, who in turn pass it onto their Personal Assistants. I am worth so much more than what I feel I am doing. A friend of…
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  • Suddenly Things Can Change!
    December 3, 2024
    Ever feel as if you are just not doing enough? But at that exact same moment and breath you know there is not more that you can do. That is how I am feeling. I am regularly applying for new jobs, I have spruced up my CV, I have done everything that I know I…
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  • Sigh!
    November 26, 2024
    So Insurance will pay for my car to be fixed. Hallelujah! Now it is all about when that will happen. Hopefully before the Auto Body Shop closes for the year. Thank You G-d! The damages comes up to a lil under a hundred grand and I don’t have to pay an excess!! Met with an…
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  • Scared!
    November 25, 2024
    I do not know what to do anymore. My husband and I looked at our budget for the month and in my eyes we are fucked! My car is being assessed for the damage it obtained from the accident last week. I am freaking out as it was hit rather badly and I don’t have…
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  • I am so Over this Life
    November 24, 2024
    I feel like no matter how hard a try and plan and strive to be better it keeps knocking me down. So I wanted a better job and to work around lots of people and to feel valued… I got the better job, there are loads of people in the company but everyone mostly works…
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  • You Got This!!
    November 17, 2024
    That is what everyone is saying to me. You got this! You got this! You got this! If only I believed in myself as much as everybody else did. I mean of course many of those people could just be fake as they don’t really know me and are just being polite. But maybe they…
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  • אני קושית יפה/I’m a Cute Black Girl Pg 103
    November 17, 2024
    It is funny how one...or at least me...runs to the father when or  or . Right now..like many other times in the recent year or so I am feeling totally lost and not sure where to call out for help. Maybe I am just too embarrassed to ask for help and pray that just by giving more of…
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  • Being Alone
    November 16, 2024
    Seems like I don’t like being alone. A huge reason why I left my previous job was because I felt so alone there…now in this job…besides HR and my boss finding issues with me…I feel so alone there….and now I am sitting watching rugby alone and I feel so depressed being alone. I am so…
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  • I Had a Dream…
    November 9, 2024
    I wonder if my dream is the same as the Great Martin Luther King? I dreamt that the world had finally been filled with love. no more… Last night my Bio mom called to me, feeling upset about all the poison that has been found in foods and drinks resulting in kids being hospitalised and…
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