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• Psychotropic Drugs.

  June 14, 2008

          My own Tabula Rasa.   Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless.     † . †       I went and saw my psychiartist a few days ago. He told me that I have "treatment resistant depression" and "Borderline Personality Diso...

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• The bitter gasoline taste of terror.

  June 8, 2008

          My own Tabula Rasa.   Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless.     † I am so terrified.†       One of my best friends has been diagnosed with cancer. He has started Chemo but  given only a few painful years to live. I have n...

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• Unflattering rawness.

  January 11, 2008

  My own Tabula Rasa. Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless. † About me † Carlos and I went to Norsewood today. We dressed up. We had an argument on the way, as I couldn't stop telling him how ugly I looked. We were going there to take photos of one another and maybe fuck. I…

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• Blindfolded yet still seeing.

  December 16, 2007

  My own Tabula Rasa. Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless. † I wished upon a star that I would get 'better' † Stars keep false promises. I have not cut myself since... October. Even then it was in a fit of drunken jealousy. I used to believe, with every fibre of my scarred soul, that&...

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• …

  November 22, 2006

  My own Tabula Rasa. Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless. † I don't like her† I was depressed earlier. I smoked some weed and now I buzzing yet content.

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• Photo Whoring.

  October 31, 2006

  My own Tabula Rasa. Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless. † Sometimes, I forget I am alive.† When Cody gets back this weekend, I plan on raping his fucking ass. I can't wait to see him. I am going to gift him a journal. This is he: His damned straight looking appearance. I want to&he...

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• Get me closer to God…

  October 30, 2006

  My own Tabula Rasa. Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless. † I broke my insides† Cody comes back this weekend. I'm really looking forward to it, to be held in his arms. I am really hot. Like, sweating. You let me violate you You let me desecrate you You let me penetrate you You let&he...

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• Jesus and Jess.

  October 25, 2006

  My own Tabula Rasa. Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless. † "God is Dead"† That photo is of me and my very close friend, Tobias. We were off to the Bizarre Ball. He was Jesus and I was one of his fallen angels. I actually have dolls heads for earrings, that you can't really...

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• I am my favourite subject.

  October 22, 2006

  My own Tabula Rasa. Scar me Beautiful. Scar me Flawless. † I'm back... † Howdy all. Long time, no see. I decided I should use this diary again. I don't have anything interesting to say, suprise suprise. I am doing ok. I am seeing a psychologist regularly now, and am on some terrible...

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