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• Just heard the diary is to close..

  January 28, 2014

  I remember when plus came along, I was one of the first to subscribe. I'd spend hours constantly looking to see who updated, to see if there were notes.I write now pretty much in solitude. My Mom passed 9/7/09, and for over a year I did not have a computer to write upon.Then 12/31/11 I…

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• A long overdue update

  July 20, 2009

  Greetings everyone.It has been a very long time since I have written here, much has changed, while much has stayed the same it seems.The last few months have had quite a few changes, the biggest one being my living situation. In January, my Mother and I went to a town near where my grandfather li...

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• Tedious ramblings..

  March 10, 2007

  Sitting here, so many months after I've written, it seems an impossible feat to try to encapsulate all that I feel inside to a blank notepad. Not that my feelings are all that complicated, but that it is overwhelming to me, and I do not quite know how to distinguish my current feelings from my&he...

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• Life is what you… make or unmake it.

  May 24, 2006

  Responsibility is a key word for me. A word that has many interpretations, depending on the situation, the instance at any given time, how it impacts you and others. For me.. I took responsibility seriously when I began working, supporting myself as best I could, but it always seemed like the cho...

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• Disconnected Reality

  May 22, 2006

  I know not who I am any longer, what I have been.. what I was years ago, who I am now.. such a juxtaposition that I cannot see where I am in this time, in this space, in this world, any longer.It is not that I am truly depressed, despite what my words might express.…

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• Overwhelmed..

  November 16, 2005

  That word sums things up right now. Things have come full circle for my mother and I. A year ago I was upset and scared, because she married a man she did not know well at all. A man she met online, who frightened me when I met him, because he was so utterly like…

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• Last Straws..

  September 11, 2005

  There are a lot of things of late that has set me spinning. It's not just one thing, but also a number of things, that seem to bring an avalanche of hurt. For a while, I can pretend everything is all right, I can shrug off things that build up, or I can bury it…

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• Long time silent..

  August 1, 2005

  It has been far, far too long since I've written anything. I've been in what is almost a mental rut, and it's odd that something that DarkRen and I were doing yesterday, which was picking up on a story type thing we were working on about the time that my last entry posted, should prompt…

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• Here still..

  April 11, 2004

  There has been so much going on that I have not had a chance to write.. but I shall be writing soon. One thing that has prevented me is the need to express things that I do not want anyone to get hurt by, just for the need to write what is confusing in my…

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