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Breakthrough?

June 8, 2022
Physical: fast mental: ??? Medication.. therapy.. group therapy.. self help.. hmm emotional: ??? Self defense class (release emotional through physical), rage room, scream, cry, ?? spiritual: art material: clean/get rid of stuff financial: get a job / save / invest social: be open to people  
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