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• I’m writing again!

  August 15, 2013

  But not here. I will always check my faves here, but as for writing... you can find me here now. If you start writing there, leave me a note so I can find you!

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• So here’s the thing…

  November 3, 2011

  ...I became a serial dater.  I started dating more than one guy thinking that where I was at at the time was a place of no commitments.  The first guy that I started talking to was Antonio.  Sweet guy.  Only 29 though and definitely immature.  Fun to hang out with, but I ...

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• Happy Effing Halloween

  October 30, 2011

  FUCK!  I'm so fucking frustrated right now.  At the point of tears.  Spent the weekend with Thurman wanting to take things to a more physical level.  We both did.  But I didn't act on the ques from him and he didn't act on the ques from me, and now... NOW he is basically ...

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• Don’t Look Back

  October 22, 2011

  It's been awhile.  Times, they are a changin'.  I'm done looking back.  I'm done trying to pull Jacob forward with me.  I'm moving forward on my own.  And I'm okay with it.  I'm experiencing moments of happiness again.  And I can see now that my life will be oka...

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• Where I’m At Now

  September 16, 2011

  Below is an excerpt from an email that I've sent to my friend updating her on where things are in my life right now.  Thought I would post it here as well.  I'm doing okay.  Hanging in there.  Life is definitely tough right now.  I just got back from Nebraska this last Tu...

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• Fight of My Life

  August 18, 2011

  Every morning when I wake up, I have to remember and realize all over again what is happening.  It's a really horrible way to start the day.  This morning when I woke up, I got up and asked Kevin if it would be okay if I stayed a couple of more nights.  He said it…

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• Or Not

  August 17, 2011

  He didn't come today.  Even he had, I'm not sure it would have been of much value.  Seems his mind is made once again that there is no more Jacob and Jamie.  As of right now, he is determined that our relationship is done.  When I talked to him this afternoon, I apparently sai...

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• The First Day of the Rest of My Life

  August 17, 2011

  Jacob is finally coming back today.  I've been waiting for days now.  I'm scared... devastated... sad... because I don't know if we are going to make it.  Don't get me wrong.  I'm holding on for dear life.  I'm praying that God will work a miracle.  That Jacob will g...

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• Trapped

  August 15, 2011

  I'm so caught up in my head right now.  It's a trap.  I'm not distracted enough at work even to not think about my current circumstances.  I'm still waiting.  What if he doesn't come back?  I feel like the longer he stays away, the less chance we have of making it through...

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