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[God||Satan] [Light||Dark] ALL ABOUT DESCISIONS

October 22, 2008
I address each and every one of YOU, (religious, evangelists, non-religious, atheists, racists, rapists, worshippers, smart, dumb, comfused, sure, moody, happy, big, small, black, white, I could go on...) the people! I've read the Satanic Bible and the Christian Bible. That's right! Out of pure c...
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