Recent Entries

• letting go

  August 9, 2013

  Give me one glass of cab sauv and one reason why And I'll lie my ass off and try to never realize And it doesn't matter now, those things that I believed. I've dodged shadows in the rain, and failed miserably. Now I'm dancing with the pain Letting go, exquisitely    

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• chemicals between us

  August 5, 2013

   writing an entry from my phone, forgive me. for all of my rationalizing and analyzing, just cannot seem to crawl out from under this crushing overwhelming sadness, anxiety. the physical pressure is building in my body and feels like my head and all my limbs could be blown off at any moment....

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• really living

  June 4, 2013

  Summertime is here again and all i want to do is breathe it in. we went fishing yesterday until the sun went down. rolled the truck windows down and felt the wind rush through my fingers as we rode in comfortable silence away from the lake and its mysteries. his eyes explored mine with that…

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• 05/06/2013

  May 5, 2013

  To delete or not to delete, that is the question. These days, I prefer paper to screen.  I really wanted this to be something I could enjoy as much as I did "back in the day". But I just can't sit still long enough to type out things I've written or things I'm thinking about.…

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• amy schumer

  April 10, 2013

   I just read part of my last entry and noticed that parts of sentences were missing. I suck at typing on this kindle fire, apparently. But, the main point of this post is to go on the record to say that I don't like Amy Schumer. She comes across to me as unoriginal and a…

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• everything is gonna be alright.

  April 6, 2013

  it makes me sad to read the previous entries, so I won't. I could just delete it and pretend like we never struggled, but that would be dishonest and I would still know. The point is that I am just really happy, excited, and peaceful right now. chase and i have grown a love that…

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• happy birthday to me

  December 10, 2011

  I think it's all going to be ok. we are not through this yet, but i have faith in him and myself and us.... my dream of having his children and building this life together can still come true. I believe he wants it, too. I'm not the only thing he's going through right now.…

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• thanksgiving

  November 23, 2011

  i think my husband is going to leave me. i can't feel my arms. nothing much makes sense to me right now. and nothing else matters.    

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• i bet you feel this way sometimes, too

  November 7, 2011

          It's raining so hard outside right now. I'm thankful for the thunder. I just felt like posting bits of myself for you guys to see. I need a friend and the closest thing I've got to one right now is this diary. Won't show this part of me to people. I...

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