Recent Entries

• Help

  November 9, 2019

  I'm really in my head tonight.  Although, I have come a very long way. It's crazy to think the things I do sometimes. Above all else, I lack exceedingly in self-confidence. Or... Maybe I am just unaware of how valuable I actually am. So, my boyfriend and my love , absolutely gorgeous in my eyes.&...

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• Only A Thought

  November 8, 2019

  I can't explain how I feel towards him. No. We argue. We aren't 100% available for each other sometimes. We have a bit of the same music tastes, but not fully. He is the wanderer. But what amazes me the most...really...is that I don't hold him to his past. Nothing he ever tells me about…

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• Hubby…

  November 7, 2019

  "Smile, you damn beautiful soul. Its' light spreads and makes the starseeds shine."   To my darling husband (soon to be or not) , Currently, I am young but I lay with you.  You are up on the bed, you have a clipboard in hand, colored pens and are coloring. Earlier, today, you and I…

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• 30 Things To Show Appreciation To The One You Love

  November 7, 2019

  Everyone needs those, lifting words of encouragement to know they are doing well especially when you are in love.  Couples, shouldn't be pointing out the flaws they see in the other person, flaws are supposed to be those cute, quirky things your partner does that makes you keep falling for them o...

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• “I Hate My Mother”

  November 7, 2019

  No. I never did.  I always loved her. I missed her. I wanted her. I wanted her cuddles, her kisses, the mother, I always  loved. I grew up, wanting her all the time. Of course, then, I didn't realize it.  I was brainwashed. I was consistently reminded by my father that she was a horrible…

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• Accusing Instigator

  November 6, 2019

  I'm a master accuser and instigator. All my life, I have been. Somebody is doing something and I am doing everything to make them angry. All this causes is pain. I mean real deal, deep, pain. I have to hold myself accountable each and every time.

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• “Not Even Gonna Lie”

  November 5, 2019

  I'm stone at heart but grieving inside. Relationships just become so exhausting and I put myself in that position so many times. I literally break my own heart. My mind is far out there, you know?   Everything...and I mean everything just hurts.

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• Want

  November 5, 2019

  Lately, I am prone to bring the "screw up". I recognize it has a lot to do with my love and sex addiction, but, at the same time... I discovered something. Steve Furtick is a pastor and as I was watching a live sermon, It became clear to me. That night, I fell asleep quickly…

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