Recent Entries

• 03/27/2013

  March 26, 2013

  no one has to know that i haven't been sober no one needs to know about the weight on my shoulders i'm not taking advantage of life and the rest but everyone knows that this life is the best so what is my problem, i don't have a clue everything bores me to pieces, i…

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• Schizo

  October 23, 2012

   The guy I've been stressing about for months and months has turned out to have schizophrenia. He's been developing symptoms rapidly over the last few months. I noticed many of them and was in denial about it.   Apparently he got back with his exgirlfriend about 2 months or so ago, and ...

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• College Slums

  June 19, 2012

  Backtrack to December. I am staying at my grandma's, talking to my family about my living situation. I mention that I don't feel safe in my house- my roommate is a drug dealer and just robbed someone who supposedly took money from him, he's also an alcoholic and tried to beat his friend to death&...

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• Hollow

  May 27, 2012

  Memorial day was fun...? I went out drinking with my old neighbors from fall semester last night. I haven't really been hanging out with them and I was in the mood for some female company. I thought it would be fun and a great way to unwind after having some emotional outbursts towards Ryan this&...

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• Meanwhile, at my life

  May 4, 2012

   I fucked school up so badly this semester. The worst semester since my freshman year. I have to take out private loans so I can attend summer school because I don't qualify for federal aid with my grades, and I will have to take a full fifth year now. I honestly am much more mentally…

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• Everything is everything is everything

  April 30, 2012

  Assume everything is the system of literally all the "stuff" that is in existence--our universe. Define the existence of everything as the fact that there is "stuff" to be perceived in our universe. Our perception defines our reality, but we know that the universe still goes o...

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• 03/19/2012

  March 18, 2012

  I've always noticed this pattern, but I thought it was worth pointing out... I usually only write in this diary when I am overly anxious about something, and I've realized it's typically the day before I start my period, lol. Weird. I'm still hanging out with Ryan. I probably scared him with my h...

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• ARGGG boys are confusing

  March 11, 2012

  What the fuck.   I've been hanging out with this dude I met off Okcupid. He is really great and I like him too much. Well, he might not be that great... I'm having second thoughts.   His Okcupid said nothing about him not wanting a relationship. So once I realized that this gu...

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• Cool…

  January 14, 2012

  :) Life is good

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