Recent Entries

• It’s the day after Super Tuesday, and I’m angry

  March 4, 2020

  I woke up this morning feeling like the world had, once again, punched me in the gut. I woke up angry, reminded yet again of how deeply ingrained misogyny is—not just in our tech companies or our entertainment industry—but in the fabric of our politics. I want to talk about ally-ship. An ally is ...

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• Boi bye

  April 22, 2019

  Look, I'm not especially proud of this entry I'm about to write, but it's where I'm at. Sometimes you have to wake up and face your own pettiness... or maybe your own hurt. I've been separated from my husband (C) for about 3 months to the day. And last weekend I started filling out all…

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• strong back. soft front.

  March 10, 2019

  Back in 2010, I decided to participate in one of those early viral activities on Facebook: "How Others Describe Me." Essentially, I asked a bunch of people throughout my life to describe me, and then I summarized them all into a note. I will, of course, quote the entire thing below for your amuse...

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• might as well

  March 2, 2019

  OD, this is our moment, you and I. I, indecision, dreamergrrl, traumerin... I am bi. This is me coming out to you after 19 years of knowing one another. I'll run through some quick FAQs: How long have you known? Unclear. I've only started talking about it to anyone in the past 6 months. But part&...

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• eyeroll

  March 2, 2019

  This week I've been feeling super empowered and really just in touch with my own needs and desires. Honestly, it's been really nice. I wasn't sure I'd feel that way for awhile, and it was nice to finally feel like I had agency. So I've been starting the whole online dating thing. And I've got&hel...

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• this is what valentine’s day is all about

  February 15, 2019

  I just experienced the best valentine's day in years. I spent the evening with my friends N & H—former coworkers and amazing women. They came over after work, and we spent the evening snacking on... well, mostly bread if I'm being honest... and chatting the night away. We laughed, we dished, ...

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• inconvenient truths

  January 28, 2019

  There's a thing I haven't told you. Partially because I wasn't sure I wanted to tell you, but also partially because I thought that by writing about it I might only be encouraging the thoughts. But fuck it, I'm... I'm going there. There's a friend I used to work pretty closely with that I develop...

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• starting from scratch

  January 28, 2019

  I'm sitting here in bed looking out over the city, and I'm calm. I'm happy. And I'm so proud of myself. I, my dear Open Diary, am starting from scratch. I am 34 years old (at least for another week or so), and I've thrown it all out. I quit my job at the end…

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• me crying at work: part 841

  May 18, 2018

  We are perfectly aware by now that I cry. A lot. I cry a lot at work even. But... I haven't cried in a few weeks. Things have been good. I felt like I was making progress on the feedback I'd gotten so far. And then... bam. 1x1 with some surprise (and, what seemed to…

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