Recent Entries

• Past

  December 9, 2010

    I have taken up the dirty habit of sorting through my past. I have kept far too many mementos in my lifetime. Online conversations, emails, thoughts, notes, pictures. It is all too much to think about at once, and when I try, I feel horribly overwhelmed. My past, I am s...

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• Sometimes

  December 5, 2010

  Sometimes it actually feels like my heart is seizing up in my chest.  It's been happening more and more often lately...when I'm at work, my mind will drift, and as soon as it hits one particular thought group, I get dizzy and panicked and need to resist the urge to claw at my ribcage.&n...

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• 11/26/2010

  November 25, 2010

   I think it's also because I fear failure and regret.  And when you have to admit failure or live with regret, well then. Scary.     It's also possible that I'm actually insane.  Certainly feels like it sometimes.  Often, really.  

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• It’s Ironic

  November 24, 2010

   You know what's really messed up?  Being a full grown man with a career that affects the entire world every day...and just wanting to go back to high school.   I've done well for myself in the typical American way, I suppose.  So why am I not happy?  I feel selfish, self...

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• I think…

  November 24, 2010

   I think I've figured it out.   It's that I'm a coward.  

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• Cage

  December 5, 2009

   It was dark.   A small sliver of light crept in from somewhere off in the distance, like the thin sliver of light underneath a door to the outside.  But there was no outside.  There was no inside either; there just was what was all around him, and that was darkness.  The...

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• Long Time

  April 11, 2009

  Almost two years. Nothing seems to work.  Bad couple of days.  Lonely without my wife, maybe.  She'll be back soon.  But I will leave someday.  Maybe for too long.  Have faith.  I don't believe in it anymore, but I will still have to leave.  Irony...

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• BlaRGH!

  August 19, 2007

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• The Beehive

  October 11, 2006

  The din of the battle around him was growing frantic, confusing, deafening.  With every step he took there was another to face him, another who stood in his way, and another who would gladly usurp his existence.  But the Hero was not afraid.  He was, instead, encouraged by the chao...

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