I cant wait for this to end
and leave tonight behind us
I'm unsettled letting go of you
and sleeping the night in silence
and this laptop falls along with me
onto my bed while rolling over
break my heart and break my fall
dont kiss him and color all
memories you had of me
the last time I saw you
you were standing by his side
the last time you saw me
seated close as I waited by the phone
He loves you
who loves you more?
To let you go
He loves you
who loves you more?
To let you go
I can wait until my heart mends
so I can finally go outside
and I tell myself, look Ken
It's better to lost love
then paint a smile and pretend
The last time I saw you
you were standing by his side
the last time you saw me
seated close as I waited by the phone
He loves you
who loves you more?
To let you go
He loves you
who loves you more?
To let you go
The last time I saw you
you were standing by his side
the last time you saw me
was in a crumpled photograph that missed the bed
He loves you
who loves you more?
To let you go
He loves you
who loves you more?
To let you go
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scared
May 6, 2001
I'm scared of many things, not stuff like spiders or heights though, more like myself and my friends. I know it's accquried to b scared of them, since ur suppose to trust them and all, but I'm scared to b too close, cause once they leave it's all over. everything. Like they stranded me out…Continue Reading... -
Suicide dreams
May 3, 2001
I look in the mirror and see a fucked up kid, a guy who is about to lost everything after wanting everything. A guy who sees the world as nothing but a hell. Friends of mine say that suicide is the easy way out of things but I don't see it that way, I see…Continue Reading... -
Deathtone
May 1, 2001
The tone of death in my ears, better then the sound of life, something that I will always fear. I see hell as heaven at times, where u can be all bad and not get in trobule in anyway. Though I don't always see stuff this way, there's times in my life that I actually…Continue Reading... -
All alone
April 29, 2001
I feel alone right now, alone in the world, not just my house. It feels like I have lost all my closest friends in a gamble to make new ones. I can't stand it, it seems like noone is hearing me, I'm in their face yelling at the top of my lungs and there simpily…Continue Reading... -
Bored
April 26, 2001
I'm bored and techinally home alone. My dad is asleep again like he always is and none of my friends are home. I can't think of what to do, this school year is coming to an end and soon I have to say "bye" to a lot of them without ever getting to say "hi"…Continue Reading... -
Heart Throbber
April 25, 2001
This title doesn't really make sense because it seems like I have no heart, that emotions don't come to me anymore and that nothing I see ever really sadens me. Like I'm the same fucking way all the time, no matter what I do, no matter what happens to me I walk around like it's…Continue Reading... -
Trusting no1
April 24, 2001
I feel that as of late I can trust no1, like every1 is against me. Even my closest friends have gone to turning into rivals. Like the world met together 1 day and all decided to go against me. Now it feels like I have nothing left to but to sit in a dark room…Continue Reading... -
Thoughts of mine
April 23, 2001
This entry really has no meaning or singulair point, it's just several thoughts of mine that I wanted to get down. Over the last couple of days I thought that the girl of my dreams had been mad at me for some reason, I think it was because she wasn't talking to me online(now I…Continue Reading... -
Lonely
April 20, 2001
This life of mine that I am suppose to live is fucked up. I've tried to end it before but failed, and now I have made a promise to someone that I wouldn't try it again, don't know why I made that promise it's just tortureing myself. I feel that I'm living alone, or at…Continue Reading...
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