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• oh… wow…

  July 19, 2018

  12:20 pm listening to: Bush - "Swallowed', Scott Weiland - "But Not Tonight" (Depeche Mode Cover), Tool - "Vicarious"   It feels crazy to be writing in here again.  Looking back I think the last time I wrote in here was early 2011 (crazy considering I started this in October 1999).  I had to...

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• Pour my heart out

  January 26, 2011

  7:50pm I know I said I wasn't going to write entries like this, or just write anything like this period... but like I ever follow my word. That thing about writing (offline) everyday, I haven't even done that in weeks. Let's now kid ourselves here.. I'm no writer. Yes, I write, but that doesn't r...

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• Arms Entwined.

  January 3, 2011

  12:48 am Listening to: "Love Hurts" by Incubus & "Lose You" by Pete Yorn I can feel the dried tears on the rims of my eyes. I see that it should be me there & it's not. I can't just get over what I did. This is as much as I'll probably ever cry over...

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• Insight

  December 30, 2010

  2:19 am Listening to: "New Ice Age" by Alpinestars & various stuff  by Metric I hate my cd burning program. For some reason, it feels the need to process the tracks before it even starts burning the cd. Annoying. As a result, it takes almost 30 minutes to burn a single cd....

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• Into Dust

  December 16, 2010

  9:17 am Listening to: "Into Dust" by Mazzy Star Whenever I'm lacking a title, it's good to know I can always steal ones from my favorite artists. Same old story, I can't sleep. I'm sick of drugging myself to sleep every night & waking up feeling like I haven't re...

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• The Sheild of my Indifference

  December 12, 2010

  12:36 am Listening to: "New Ice Age" by Alpinestars   Listening to this song just makes me wish it were a warm Spring day. I wish I could be laying on top of a picnic table in a vacant park. Thinking about it, I can almost feel the sun's warmth washed over my face. B...

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• Too Close to Hate

  December 5, 2010

  4:37 am Listening to: Depeche Mode My mind is so messed up. All day, it's been all over the place. A bad, bad day today. Of course, it could have been worse. It can always be worse. But still, it's enough to cause me to put on my headphones, write, & tune out the world out…

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• Turn around

  December 4, 2010

  Sunday, 12:39 am Listening to: "Crawl" by The Dreaming, "Digital Bath" by the Deftones, "Forever Lost" & "Face the Music" by Conjure One Does anyone else find the first  sentence of an entry the hardest thing to write (next to a decent title)? It's...

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• Shawna

  November 29, 2010

  Tuesday, 3:23 am Listening to "Stuck in Here" & "Lie after Lie"  by Filter Another late night of chain smoking & music. I give up on sleep. It seems to really only come when it's ready. I'm up IMing my brother through one of his tough times. I don't mind...

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