welcome! 
this is a place for me to write about my life, in times of trouble and times of joy.  i've been an opendiary member for about 15 years, with various diaries over the years, but this is the one that seems to have stuck!
all noters are more than welcome, whether you agree with things i write or not.
xx

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Time to face the final curtain

January 27, 2014
It's entirely bizarre to think that when I turn on my computer, and open Facebook, AOL, and opendiary...... Well, it won't be opendiary for much longer. I started my first diary here when I was completely new to the internet, volunteering at a community run Internet cafe, and we were looking for ...
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    January 19, 2014
    I ran tonight. For the first time since the Santa dash at the beginning of December. It was a killer, but I forced myself to do 4.5k. Now I've hit 5k and know I can do it, it feels a cop out not to do it every time. Although if I run two or three…
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  • broken
    January 10, 2014
    I think my patients have been trying to break me this week.  I worked three long days, and they are three of the worst shifts I've worked back to back in a long time.  you quite often get a terrible day then things settle down, but these three were horrific. Wednesday, I was looking aft...
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  • Emotional
    January 6, 2014
    Whenever I'm sick I cry. For absolutely no reason. When I'm sick, I'm completely on the edge emotionally. Tv adverts for cat food can make me cry. So imagine my reaction when john text me this: Hey gorgeous just leaving work now. Gonna have a shower and pop round if that's OK!? Still feel like&he...
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  • Hamburg
    January 5, 2014
    I don't think I wrote about hamburg, in December. That is right people, I managed to book a holiday with a boy, and actually go on that holiday! I was beginning to think holidays were the kiss of death for me in a relationship, having had to cancel two in recent years. We had an…
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  • Hamburg
    January 5, 2014
    I don't think I wrote about hamburg, in December. That is right people, I managed to book a holiday with a boy, and actually go on that holiday! I was beginning to think holidays were the kiss of death for me in a relationship, having had to cancel two in recent years. We had an…
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    January 4, 2014
    i am sick. well, the whole group of us who came out for new year are sick to be fair. john started with the sneezes on new years day, and slowly got worse, and I worked Thursday night, felt absolutely fine, went to bed and woke up feeling like death. worked Friday night, where one…
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  • Festive fun and merry making
    December 30, 2013
    firstly, before I go on about how amazing my Christmas has been, I just want to thank you all for your notes on my previous couple of entries. it's safe to say work has been emotionally challenging, and the nights have been physically draining, and to hear you all share your stories of your exper...
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  • Christmas Eve
    December 24, 2013
    So I'm working tonight. I went to see john before I came to work, at his uncle's house, so caught up with his mum and his uncle too. Was a bit of a misery on the quiet, I'd had a terrible night in work last night, one of my long time patients had died, I've…
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  • Barb
    December 23, 2013
     one of my ladies died today. I've looked after her since she was first diagnosed with leukaemia, way back when I was a student.   her husband hugged me and thanked me for all we'd done, and said we'd been her comfort blanket throughout her illness, which I thought was an incredibly tou...
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