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Korea

July 11, 2013
In November I am going to Korea.  It is my alternative to suicide. In this life, I am so incredibly unhappy. I think about suicide everyday.  My ultimate conclusion is that it solves nothing. It wont make me happier. It wont fix the problems I have with my life.  I don't need and e...
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