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Ipod engraving

January 14, 2013
 I haven't written in this diary for over two years. It's crazy. Anyway, I want to order an Ipod Touch and they're giving me the option to engrave it and I can't decide. Here are my idea's:   1.Take a sad song and make it better     (from Hey Jude by The Beatles)  …
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