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• what must it be like, to be happy for more than a minute at a time?

  November 5, 2023

  Well, looks like I'm back. It's been, in some ways, a wonderful 7 months, and in other ways, very difficult. I got a new job, and then lost said job. I'm sort of trying now to find a new one, but I find it all exhausting. I'm sick of working for a living. It's a…

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• i think i’m just going to have to break up with him

  March 15, 2023

  because he really can't stand by anything he says, he obviously doesn't give half a shit about my feelings, and there's no sense hoping to change him. after another, i dunno, two weeks, he decided to ask me what he could do to make me feel more comfortable. and i basically said, 'i find it…

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• hope springs eternal

  March 10, 2023

  i have been trying to focus more lately on finding a new job. it may sound petty, but skirts and dresses were recently deemed forbidden as part of our uniform by the management, and i am officially way fucking over it. imagine that - losing all self-expression being the last straw on my camel's b...

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• and all that was left in the box… was hope

  March 4, 2023

  well, it's been a hell of a fortnight here in Assafrassland. i just found out that Pat has still been talking to other women after saying he would take a pause for us to work on ourselves. when confronted on why he would do that if he was afraid it would fuck up our relationship,…

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• where does all this fucking entitlement come from?

  March 1, 2023

  i have been trying for over a month to re-do the schedule for my staff at my job. it has been immensely difficult and annoying. i messaged my team and asked if they had anything they would like to request for the schedule. half of them said nothing. two of them requested to keep their…

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• new week, same ol’ shit

  February 27, 2023

  on top of everything else, one of my receptionists seems to be really trying to stir the pot with the other receptionists under my supervision. she's mad that her raise wasn't what she hoped it would be (i don't blame her - i was mad that the reception pool raises weren't what i expected them&hel...

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• hit me again.

  February 27, 2023

  hey, i think what i could really use right now would be one more kick in the pants. and the world is always ready to kick you when you're down, so i've just heard from my side gig hosting karaoke that i've been replaced. love that.

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• things are always better in the morning

  February 25, 2023

  it really felt good to get all that off my chest yesterday. i think in general, things have felt overwhelming lately, and this is sort of my cycle - i take on too much, i let it drive me into the ground, and i find myself on the brink of a total mental breakdown. though…

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• surviving is frankly exhausting

  February 24, 2023

  i have been having just a fucking terrible week. month? 2023 has pretty much been shit so far, if i'm being completely honest. my boyfriend and i decided to open our relationship* recently, and i was not prepared for how that would make me feel. at first it was fine, he was seeing a bunch…

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