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Thirty-Four: Doll Clothes (Poem)

December 9, 2013
Doll ClothesIf only I could go back to doll clothes,The perfect size to make me whole again,A time in my life, the memories I want to forget.I’ll never fit into the innocence; the innocence was never mine.Painted on smile and beaded eyes,Stitches are beginning to fray, and now,Exposed in the fluf...
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