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• 04/19/2013

  April 18, 2013

   "Woke up wished that I was dead,  there's an aching in my head" ~the Weepies Can't remember the rest of the lyrics though. I know it's from the Grays Anatomy sound track. Reread some old entries and its got me feeling a bit morose, but lately that's not surprising.  Its ...

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• Been a While

  April 17, 2013

   Sitting here, early hours of the morning, drinking a glass of wine and wondering if I've even got anything worth writing about. *shrugs* It's been a Long year. After 2.5yrs I quit my sometimes job. It got to the point that I paid more in gas than I was getting paid. Plus it appears we'll&he...

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• Vines

  March 1, 2012

  The vines were beautiful in their time, flowers blooming sweet and fragrant slowly fading to yellow and brown drifting crumbled to the ground trampled on by uncaring boots little bits of fragrant dust leaving only roots buried deep down they wait for love to bring them 'round So much like what's ...

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• Still Breathing

  August 9, 2010

  As of 8 days ago, Dad's been gone 2 years. It still hurts today like today was the day it happened. I haven't figured out how to compartmentalize the pain and grief. My monster doesn't help with it either, not anymore. We lost Pumpkin back in June, so now anytime I start thinking about one…

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• What am I fighting For?

  March 15, 2010

  the truck still only 2/3 full and I gave up. the thought of 'what's the point?' wouldn't leave my mind. I don't even know what most of this stuff is. aside from that, when will I see it all again? it's like there's no point for any of this. my Dad, grandpa, grandma, uncle, other…

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• Why?

  October 21, 2009

  Why does good bye hurt so much? Why did you have to go? Why can't I get over this? Why do I still miss you so? Why is my heart still beating? Why do my lungs still breathe? Why does my body go on living, when I've nothing left to give? Why am I still…

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• Dear Daddy

  August 28, 2009

  I wish I could tell you happy birthday in person. You'd have been 63 today. I really screwed things up this time, didn't I? All my life I've been letting you down, too many times to count and in ways that you'd never imagined, but this time when I let you down, I lost you.…

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• 08/02/2009

  August 1, 2009

  how long can I go on like this? the past year has been pure hell lies were told and believed, honest love denied, and then to top the whole thing off my last hero died behind the wall of lies they built, your heart you did hide and when I begged you for a friend…

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• Half Past Dead

  January 15, 2009

  So, thanks to some psycho crazy adulterus hag I haven't been able to have my daughter with me since my dad passed away in August. And, not olny did my ex mother in law tell me what a horrible parent I am and that my child would be better off if she never saw me…

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