I understand that half of what I say will not makes sense. But that’s what a Diaries for, right? Feelings, personal feelings. Feelings do not coincide with logic a lot of the time but written down helps the process of understanding. Opinions are wanted and encouraged. So please tell me what you think. Because this is just a girl trying to understand what years of abuse have done and unraveling and renewing thoughts that her and God are trying to undo of what real love is suppose to be. For the first time accepting and knowing what love really is.
<span style="font-size:13.0pt;font-family:Verdana;
mso-bidi-font-family:Verdana"> For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.   -Ephesians 6:12

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There once was a girl

June 29, 2019
There was a girl with innocence must be there was a darkness inside her she did not see. Twas there from the start and was written on her heart The story had begun in a place that we shall see   The prayers were given her from her birth A diamond from wreckage was allotted…
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