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July 14, 2020
Well I'm back. I had a short stint on prosebox. After getting harassed and then bullied with online administration doing nothing about it, I promptly left and am rejoining opendiary [edit: Scratch that; administration stepped up and saved the day, so all is good now]. I wasn't on this site for ve...
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    November 3, 2018
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    November 1, 2018
    Today is my birthday. I'm really dreading the fact that I have to start today, because today is really stressful and I probably won't be home until 8 again. The last, last time I went through something rather tumultuous I ended up having to get therapy. I think a lot about the therapist's techniq...
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    October 31, 2018
    So she tried to fire me. The downside is that she gave no verbal or written warning and HR warned her about labor laws and how they have to give me time to improve performance. The upside is that we’re civil towards each other and she continues to mentor me while I continue working hard…
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    October 29, 2018
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  • 102918 pt II
    October 29, 2018
    Honestly, I think my boss wants to hire her friend. She told me a year ago that her friend was graduating this fall, and she wanted to offer a position to her friend who is from the same country as her. I think she's probably shifting people around like on a chessboard. I recall in…
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  • 102918
    October 29, 2018
    Today my boss notified me that she might fire me. For awhile I wondered if it was because I lacked the ability to become a scientist. Back then, I didn't know how to recover from a setback. Now I realize, with age, that it's about perseverance. Because after some time, the doubts and lack of…
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    October 29, 2018
    Is it possible to be in love with two different people at once? Not for me. Before my ex there was someone else. My friend. I "picked" my ex because of how much he resembled him. Of course as time passed, he began to fade as my ex took center stage, but the fact that…
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    October 28, 2018
    To be honest, I don't recall ever taking so long to learn new words. I'm not sure what the hold up is. My mind hasn't functioned the same ever since the psychotic break. It's easier to mix things up now. Scenarios become interchangeable. My dream scape has changed as well.  There's a narrative no...
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    October 28, 2018
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