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seasonal bliss

September 21, 2013
Catching the breeze though my short hair, smelling Fall swallow Summer, staring at the bright sun as it envelops me, I sometimes forget what perfection is. Rarely do I stop, freeze that moment and admire it. I used to do this often, perhaps more influenced by the drugs I was on, but now years lat...
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