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• I’m really bad at this

  October 22, 2008

  I'm really bad at this keeping up on my open diary thing..oops... I haven't been up to a whole lot..just working, trying to practice, and procrastinating my life. Things i have to do, but don't want to start: Preparing music for grad school auditions FAFSA for spring Grad school applications and ...

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• stop it..

  August 7, 2008

  I was sitting at work today, during a moment where I had nothing to do.  For a split second..I got excited and thought, i'll call mom and chat. Is that weird...it happens once and awhile..  then I just got really sad. I also had quite a few near tear moments. Those are still more freque...

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• creeping..

  August 4, 2008

  Depression is beginning to creep back in.. I have nothing to look forward to..I get up..maybe do some cleaning/packing, shower, eat, and go to work. work..at a job that I hate...hate ..hate. I don't make enough money, and I'm just sick of working in a restaurant when my love is music. I could fin...

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• R.I.P. Mom 6-22-08 part III

  July 30, 2008

  I try to imagine what Mom's days were like at the Hospice house..I always felt bad because I could never get up there to see her until around 5pm everyday.  Whether I was just running errands, doing things for Dad, or working, I just couldn't seem to get up there earlier. I know sometimes pe...

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• sorry..

  July 22, 2008

  Sorry, I've been having motivational issues lately...I will finish writing about my Mom..I swear.

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• i feel like im going to vomit..

  July 22, 2008

  My whole life has been torn apart since I came home from school. Very rarely am I really happy anymore. My mom died. I broke up with scott--more on this later.. I don't know what to do with my life anymore-I don't know if I should go to grad school anymore bc I would be…

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• R.I.P Mom 6-22-08 part II

  July 14, 2008

  The next week after I got home was a lot of the same. I went back to work after a few days, but requested to work only mornings so I could be home as soon as possible to be with Mom.  Dad opens his store at 11-11:30 am usually, the earliest shift I could take…

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• R.I.P Mom 6-22-08 part I

  July 12, 2008

  Tuesday May 27th 2008 On the 27th I came back to the US from China.  I'd say I went home, but I didn't.  I spent a few days on long island with erin. That evening I called home to talk to my parents. I told them about the flight home and some more about China…

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• updates

  May 2, 2008

  It's been a little while..lots has happened..i'll back up. april 16th was my concerto, basically the coolest thing i've ever done.  It went really well, there was a pretty good sized audience too.  I don't really know how to describe it, it was just so much fun.  I was pooping my p...

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