Recent Entries

• 08/02/2011

  August 1, 2011

  It is nearly two in the morning, and I am staring at my computer screen.  I tried sleep earlier, but the thoughts and the worries kept nibbling at me and keeping me from rest.  You would think that, after only sleeping a few hours earlier in the day I would be exhausted enough to fall&h...

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• Flower Power

  July 29, 2011

  I opened my door this morning, telling Rich goodbye as he headed to do some overtime work.  I was wearing shorts I've had since high school, the little fabric ones that you see cheerleaders and runner wear.  These were black and said DANCE across the rear.  They also fit me a bit (...

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• Catching up

  July 24, 2011

  I've been neglecting my diary, again.  Shameful I know.  So I come to catch up.  The problem with putting it all off for so long is that is begins to be difficult to determine what to write about.  To relate the entirety of the last month would be folly, and a rather long foll...

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• 06/19/2011

  June 18, 2011

  My heart aches within me Wish I  could stop her pain Wish I could hold her to me Wish to begin again   Wonder how to help her She knows not who I am Wish I could embrace her Show her I'm a friend   Anger builds inside me Against the one she loves Wish…

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• 06/05/2011

  June 4, 2011

  At the risk of sounding like a giddy little school girl: Date two was equally awesome.  *smiles*   I honestly cannot remember the last time I felt as comfortable around someone.  The defenses melted away, and I was one hundred percent openly myself.  I trust him. Tha...

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• Update… and a Date

  May 28, 2011

  Hello dearests.  I live, in case you were wondering.  The school year is winding to a close, and I am (actually looking forward to) teaching summer school for the month of June.  It is that time of year that I find myself teary eyed at random moments, because I'm about to...

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• Limbo *Update*

  April 19, 2011

  I know that my entries of late have not been so uplifting, for that I apologize.  This one shan't begin much better, but if you bear with me I promise to include some funny moments from school. (Yes, I'm bribing you to listen to me vent. But, at least I admit it).   ...

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• 04/13/2011

  April 12, 2011

  The darkness holds tight.  Yielding but little to the light.  Heavy is the heart, and heavier yet the soul.    I am breaking.  I can see the fractures running through my frame.  I can see the darkness spilling out.  I am breaking.    I push it dow...

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• 03/29/2011

  March 28, 2011

  Why is it so hard   To admit that   I'm (not) ok?   My sister is separating from her husband.  Not her choice, but his.  I hurt and I ache for her, even knowing that she hasn't been the easiest person to deal with these last few years.  She does not speak to me,...

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