Recent Entries

• no.

  November 23, 2013

  watch because im still not crying. cutting off the worthlessness and lying. i am done. done and what done means is done. over it. over it. no more scars, no more dysfunction. we are done. you and me AND you and me. i will miss, because i love you. but i am done. its over.…

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• trial and error

  September 16, 2013

  funny how some people can effect you..... even if it's years and years later. somehow, i don't think i am the one malfunctioning. somehow, i dont think i am the one that is wrong. if there is such a thing.... how can such a love that springs forth from me with such intensity, such purpose…

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• 08/05/2013

  August 4, 2013

  eating and sleeping are for people who want to do stuff like stay alive.

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• Back

  July 14, 2013

  if pain is pleasure pleasure pain and all the world fraught with disdain then in this noise this thunder rain what lies ahead could be the same in darkness wander search and brood for that which may always elude the senses heighten course and crude if errors present blame the fool without this fa...

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• Uncertainty

  June 11, 2013

  nothing at all snapshots of myself and i can hardly breathe the only thing left the only thing more is what might be left of me within infinite stars and zip codes and bars there are billions of people to see within the darkness of heart and a hopeful head start there is only one…

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• 06/03/2013

  June 2, 2013

  I want you to know I still dream about you. I wish I could understand why. Perhaps a missed opportunity in this lifetime for that kind of happiness you only see in the movies. And not so often even there anymore.... What happened between us was regrettable. I guess I never thought I'd use that&he...

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• No… wait

  May 18, 2013

  I feel something hollow in the pit of my stomach... im not sure how to describe it. I am.... apprehensive? doubtful? scared? what is this disgust that plagues me? to what can it be attributed? is there no solace from this endless torment? sorry. throwback. d says she has big news. i'll let you ta...

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• 05/11/2013

  May 10, 2013

  the irony of the fact that all my entries have the same theme is not lost on me. the fact that I only write here when i have no other option, because of whatever reason, and find no difference in the months between entries. each one speaks the same riddles, sings the same melancholy tune.…

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• dont ask

  February 13, 2013

  happy valentines day..... how appropriate that i ruin everything? again. i dont know if i am scared, unsatisfied, jealous or simply worthless. i feel like i have lost everything and now am just drifting on a wind, hoping to find a solid ground upon which to build a fleeting empire. my sisters are...

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