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• AmyShell at prosebox

  January 29, 2014

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• not “enough”

  September 1, 2013

  This was my attitude a lot about David and how he was as a parent.  He just didn't do "enough."  He knew that I would take care of the girls and he did what he could... but not... enough. When he was working a lot of hours, a schedule he didn't feel he had control…

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• “too ok”

  August 9, 2013

  I was sitting here studying.. and after i get this out i will get back to it.. but i was sitting here and all of the sudden i had the feeling that I have been "too ok" lately.. No silent crying at the computer looking over old pictures or looking at sad, heartfelt yet heartbreaking…

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• 12 weeks.

  August 4, 2013

  Just recapping..  In the past 12 weeks I have...  *started nursing school *completed my first semester in 7 weeks with a 4.0 *spent 4 clinical days a the VA, 2 at Children's hospital, 2 at a camp for kids with special needs, and 2 on an ob floor (6 more of those to come) *saw…

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• Anxiety..**

  June 29, 2013

  Anxiety is rearing it's ugly head, and i'm feeling terribly unsettled daily. The root?   The housing crisis of course..   We saw an amazing house on Thursday evening..  like PERFECT.. and filled out the rental application.. and.... nada.   it's Sunday.  at 8am.  I kn...

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• meh.

  June 25, 2013

  So exciting news first, craptastic later... My last final for the first summer session was today.  After figuring out the grade i needed to get an A in the class, and factoring in the time i spent studying, I wasn't sure it was possible... Well it was. ;)  the test was 112 questions lon...

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• Clinical Reflection.. days 3 & 4

  June 23, 2013

  We are required to write reflections after each week of clinical.  I thought i'd just post here what I wrote for that.  ___________ Normal 0 false false false EN-US JA X-NONE <w:LsdException Locked="false" Priority="68" SemiHidden="false" UnhideWhenUsed=...

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• Feels like it happened all over again.

  June 22, 2013

  The pain of losing David is feeling very fresh and raw lately.  As if its happened only yesterday.. not nearly a year and a half ago.   I know it has to do with the fact that Morgan and Miranda were here.. and I spent time with them and David's family this weekend.  There was…

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• Father’s day heartbreak and beauty

  June 13, 2013

  As i'm sure you all know Sunday is Father's Day.   This day holds a lot of heartbreak in this house.  For my baby girls lost their dad in January of 2012.  At 40 years old, he died suddenly of a heart attack, leaving 4 children behind.  My 2 little ones, who were 7 &…

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