Recent Entries

• Moving forward from loss, destruction, and death…

  September 18, 2019

    In my own life and the lives of those close to me, as well as one of my very Favorite OD'er on this board...I find myself surrounded by an ocean of suffering and pain,  most of it inflicted on these unwilling recipients by other peoples  pain, rejection, and just general shitty decisions.....

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• Roxy, She has no idea…

  July 29, 2019

  So... One of my favorite posters here...whose member name will go unknown...her writing affects me deeply.  I wish I could say why and maybe its because she wields words like a sword-master...but her prose just cuts to the heart... I am one one-thousandth of the writer she is, but I have other gi...

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• Not with Her Part II

  July 29, 2019

  As related to my post prior (not withstanding the friends only post that was made out of crazy love and care) I said I would finish my experience of how the night I didnt have sex was actually better than the best sex I ever had... ok so lets get busy...27 hours without sleep the…

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• Not with Her was better than my best ever!

  July 24, 2019

  This is mildly (porno)graphic post if you are easily offended then better hit that back button now.. I was telling one of my closest guy friends that knows all the details of my relationship with HER that not having sex with HER was better than the best sex I ever had.   That isn't hyperbole,&hel...

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• Burning Bridges (burning ships is more like it!)

  July 14, 2019

  All my life I have preached moderation and being careful...I have said it 1,000 times..to never burn bridges that you might want to cross back again...but in some things..in the really big things, sometimes you need to burn that bridge to ashes..you must never go back... Let me raise the stakes, ...

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• Note to my “Almost” Lover’s Husband!

  July 9, 2019

  Alternative Title "Dear Ray"   I haven't delivered this message to HER's husband but i'm thinking at the right time and place to share it with him.  I wish somebody, maybe another man had shared something similar with me  18 years ago when i faced something similar..I have been drafting this...

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• Still Falling in Love

  July 7, 2019

  I'm still falling in love...trying to figure out where the bottom is...my mind is lost...this woman..what has she done.. I'm sharing the Portuguese version of this video because i love the slightly different word inflections that come with the romance languages.. Or as the Brazilians would say "j...

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• Issues..I got em too…

  July 3, 2019

  Right now my baby is on vacation with the entire extended Brazilian  friends network in Panama City...(not my most favorite place...but fun for kids!) and i'm here at home trying to work and function when all I can think about is HER.... There is nowhere else that I would rather be than by her si...

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• A Kiss for a lifetime..

  June 27, 2019

    Its been over a week since our very first kiss  (June 13th 2019 roughly at 5pm) ...to be honest I haven't even been able to process what happened to me..but I think you can get ready for about 3 pages of writing to explain a 10 second moment...please click the video if you want…

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