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• Then it hits me.

  March 2, 2009

  I realize why I can't find the love I so desperately want..... It's not for me. Not everyone is supposed to wind up with a happily ever after. I'm one of those. There is no Marc or Mat or J for me. All there is are guys who use me for a sperm receptor and…

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• Soooooooo depressed!

  February 8, 2009

  I really hate my life right now. I hate eveything. I hate that my so called bf can't go out with me on his own we ALWAYS have to go together with our friends. He's cheap. I pay for my own dates. Never took the card I got him so I trashed it. I'm done…

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• IN 15 MINS…

  February 5, 2009

  You never know what could happen in the span of 15 min. I learned the hard way Sat. At 3 a.m. my Mother expired and for 15 long mins I had no Mom, mentor, shoulder, backbone, strength, best friend no Mom. She was gone and I was alone and I had no knowledge of it…

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• IN a complicated world….

  January 30, 2009

  All I want is something simple! SO wow a bunch of new developments have gone underway. I think my BF wants me to dump him but the sex is good. My friend likes me but saw me as the best friend that all guys turn to. In essence, it's true. I've always been the listening…

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• Truth is…

  January 27, 2009

  I do love HP but I'm not sure if I should stay. I'm kind of embarassed that I do. Why? His age, what people think and how he sometimes treats me. I find myself asking is this him or the ADHD? He can act weird sometimes and can do things that hurt my feelings. I…

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• What do I do now?

  January 26, 2009

  I now realize that I'm letting people influence my decision on dating HP. I know what people say about him and his behavior etc. I know they don't like him and find him hard to deal with but I don't. I understand what's his problem and why he freaks out people. His illness is his…

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• News to me!

  January 24, 2009

  I said earlier that we all were doing a Fam Guy thing well we didn't. We wound up going to the hookah longue and seeing Freddie! He remembered my name! It was sooooooooooo good to see him again! It was the crew the usual and new to the longue, TC and Tirb. It was TC's…

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• Why do I do this to myself!

  January 23, 2009

  SO HP calls and I'm excited. I spoke to him briefly but I was working so I said i"d call him back. I was suppose to when he called the day before but I didn't. I have a reason not to, I just didn't. So, last night he calls and I knew we were supposed…

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• Adding on again…

  January 20, 2009

  So back to the last missing months. My sis lost custody of my neice which we all saw coming to be honest. She was on the news and everything. It hurts me honestly. I did all I could to prevent this from happening. I had her when she was first born when she went through…

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