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• Fertility Drugs and Family Dysfunction

  January 19, 2014

   So I started Clomid a few days ago. It sucks that it has come to this. I have to take drugs in order to try to have a baby. I'm not a pill person and in the last few weeks I've taken more pills than I care to think about. Pills to stop my period,…

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• Get the Fuck Out 2013

  December 30, 2013

   For the last day of 2013 I will spend it getting up relatively late, cooking delicious snacks for tonight, and booking a mini vacation to Philadelphia for Michael's birthday. If we bring in the new year with a relaxed attitude maybe it will help make the year a good one for us. I'm generall...

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• Prior Mistakes and Current Punishments

  December 20, 2013

   I had my follow up appointment with my doctor and his physician assistant. The good news is that my incisions are healing well. The more important and bad news is is that I have a snowball's chance in hell of conceiving naturally. I have a 2-11% chance to be more specific. It's not impossib...

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• Surgery Because I Was Bit By The Baby Bug

  December 11, 2013

   Michael and I ended up not speaking to each other for several days. I now have the login information for both credit cards so I can monitor them online. I'm making a large payment this month and another one next month. I'm seething that I even have to pay, but at this point I've come…

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• Stay or Go?

  November 16, 2013

   I spent the majority of my day off in my car studying or napping. Its not how I envisioned my Sunday. It started off well enough Michael and I were having breakfast and I happened to ask him about our credit card debt... In 2008 Michael lost his job. I worked two jobs to support…

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• Unfairness About Infertility

  November 8, 2013

   First off, and completely unrelated, I went to this website called Prose box.com. I heard it was the new improved free open diary website. Apparently OD has been having a lot of problems over the years. I haven't really been on that much so I was not aware. Anyway, I went to this new websit...

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• Infertility

  October 30, 2013

   Finally, I am determined to sit down and write an entry. Michael and I married August 2012. We had just under 70 people. Most of the vendors did a good job except for the DJ who was terrible. I won't admit this to anyone, but we should have bypassed the wedding and put the money…

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• Back

  June 20, 2013

  I can't believe FOD didn't deactivate this. I'm glad they didn't I just sort of expected them too. I can't believe its been three years...As of tomorrow I am once again on night shifts so I would like to start writing again....there is much going on in my life that I would like to rant…

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• Hm. Still Here

  December 11, 2010

  I'm at work right now on a night shift and bored. Can't sleep, which sucks because it's a quiet night and I probably could if I wanted to. I randomly decided to check to see if my diary is still here and it is. I'm surprised FOD hasn't deleted it. I'm glad they didn't; I've…

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