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• pain.

  July 30, 2010

       Damn it, the happiness is gone again. While I was waiting in the band dressing room because I had awhile before stage call, I had a breakdown (my breakdowns involve brief sobbing and a feeling of hatred toward myself). Since other people were there, I pretty much ran out ...

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• All we know is distance.

  July 29, 2010

  You know what? I think I'm actually....happy. I haven't experienced it in so long that it feels foreign. I have no logical reason to be happy other than I'm excited for the future and what it is holding for me. Am I crazy? Yes, yes I am. At least my cat loves me. I'm a…

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• sister.

  July 29, 2010

  I have visions of the moon etched into my mind, Growing smaller in my vision as I fell into the grass. I have memories of laughter, sorrow, and weeping, Each leading into another, still the thoughts are worth keeping. I have the feelings of a sisterhood, that strives to shine brighter, Though the...

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• Yee Gods!

  July 28, 2010

       The music from "The Music Man" is eating at my brain....my body...my SOUL. "THE WELLS FARGO WAGON IS AH- COMING DOWN THE STREET..." "76 TROMBONES IN THE BIG PARADE, 110 CORNETTS ETC ETC." "SWEET DREAMS BE YOURS DEAR, IF DREAMS THERE BE.....

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• words of the left.

  July 27, 2010

  You've got yourself a girl, I see. She's a pretty one, I'm sure. With her big blue eyes and her long blond hair, How could you go wrong? You've got yourself a girl, I see. Is she kind? Oh yes, of course. She's got a heart of gold, her stories all told, But does things…

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• Something worth mentioning.

  July 26, 2010

    This is something I wrote on my old account on OD, rawkes. I wanted to repost it because you can't really understand me until you've read it. Even then you might not understand me, I guess. This story is completely true...it took place my 7th grade year. I haven't written 8th gra...

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• him.

  July 26, 2010

    all girls seem to have that one boy in their past, the one that immediately comes to mind when asked about heartbreak, that boy who's name the girl can barely say without her voice changing pitch, and that someone, in some cases, that has changed their lives. his name was trevor.

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• radio ballet.

  July 25, 2010

  "I'm swimming through the stereo, I'm writing you a symphony of sound." The ball was in your court. I spent two years silently listening to your beautiful music... I had the right to let you know how I felt. That mix tape was my feelings through music, and I know you knew who it was&hel...

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• overwhelmed.

  July 24, 2010

       running, running. i am constantly running on a circular track. as i run, i am carrying many things with me. school, music, relationships... everything. sometimes, i drop something while i'm running, but i'll tell myself that i'll go back and get it later, cause i have to ...

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